there should be an @silent post that doesn’t get sent to any feeds but still exists in my profile for the not-so-niche case where i embarrass myself but don’t want to delete
asldkfjlkasdjf @disarray.sh my mom somehow knew i was going to meet someone from chicago (tbh i dont remember how, the last few weeks have been a blur) and she asked if i stayed in a hotel with you 😭
still working this out but i’ve recently been reflecting about the role of fantasy in my life. obviously spurred on by strong identification with the schizoid experiences i read about.
had a meeting with long-term work friend and couldn’t stop myself from yapping about all the lovely people in my life and they said they had never seen me so happy
in other news, i also have a very obvious and embarrassing crush, although this time im choosing to not hide away in private compensatory fantasy. kinda over defensive reluctance and safety