yeah everyone keeps telling me to be, in fairness to myself ive historically been too obsessively focused with one individual and this time around its rather different. feels like something i have to go through rather than around in any case
hmmm i think i feel wrung out. similar to when i started talking kasey again and that was my main hobby. i talked too much without having independent novel experiences.
the room is filling with carbon dioxide the more i breathe and i need some fresh air soon. i’m becoming increasingly sick of myself - the escaping words feel uninspired and disagreeable, and im frustrated with myself for having no others.
yea i kinda wish alt text on vids was a bit more apparent
soundcloud.com/k4miinari1/t... is the track, and the image is my phone background that i made years ago with a desaturated RA symbol
this could maybe be one of the things i come to look back on as quaint and non-committal but i really do mean it for now. i want willow to be happy, and the things kyler does are not happy
(instead of inserting an excessive amount of discomfort about happiness as a concept, i will trust the reader to interpret this with enough background to get what i’m going for)