in a less obscurantist manner: it was just nice to be able to make choices about my time without as much pressure as i normally experience. it was nice to be motivated enough to do something. i'm not even particularly enthused with the particularities of the day - the books were
mostly mid and i overextended myself at one point. but the crucial thing is i had the discretionary power to course correct, take care of myself, and continue on my path. that relatively unencumbered temporal form deserves appreciation, as it is has become increasingly rare for me.
one of the most compelling features of returning to this behavior is the way it affects my body. the mental strain of extended focus manifests fairly viscerally, and i get to engage in (once-familiar) strategies of refreshment. at last, a type of exhaustion worth admiring.
cool free minecraft clone ayla showed me :D
i didn't wanna install the flatpak for the client but my system package is so out of date i can't eat D: hahaha
content.luanti.org/packages/wuz...