finished perception today, §132 tmrw

started §90 and made it through sense certainty

don’t have much to say, this too is recap

§56

a concept reveals to us its being, being is revealing itself through our engagement with the concept. the concept is not related to the being in an arbitrary way, but in a necessary way

69 basically summarizes what ive been talking about for a bit on ineffability. again just going to repeat that now feels like a better time for this once i have practically felt the painful limits of that. originally it was kinda just "ok ok yea sure you're giving the standard philosophy line"

83 is hard for me. i think i can see what is being said but im not sure if it actually solves anything

wrapping up today at the end of the introduction. §90 next time

sched: ~40§ / week. 1-2 vids / weekday.

preface §13

monochromatic formalism: this expansion has not come about through one and the same principle spontaneously assuming different shapes but rather through shapeless repetition of one and the same formula, only externally applied to diverse materials, thereby obtaining merely a boring show of diversity

being-in-and-for-itself must be *for itself* too, not just __for us__

gotta love making the familiar strange

§32 is great for "the tremendous power of the negative". analysis breaks up the familiar into thoughts which are themselves familiar but what is separated is the essential negative moment.

holding onto dead intert objects requires strength (eg. positivism). beauty lacks strength and hates understanding (eg. esotericism). spirit doesnt shrink from death but devastates itself and maintains itself through this process of dismembering analysis

i think really this is what is at stake with my recent turning away from this "let's get lost" mindset. that yes for a long time i was too determinate, too fixed, i needed to think myself out of my time and place. but what i failed to recognize (and probably couldn't have recognized until going

through it painfully) was that escape from determinateness and understanding was just that negative moment but wasn't the last word. yes i was overwhelmed with assertions and bad dismemberments and impositions of legibility for others. but just rejecting those doesn't move you anywhere by itself,

it's just pure resistance. historically necessary resistance that i now feel ready to supersede, which is why this is an apt time to return to hegel

gonna take a break again. preface, §33

ah yes 33 talks about the need for what i described above a bit. but its kinda dancing between conceptions in a way that my (eg.s) were too fixed about i think

as in there are specific moments and processes of defamiliarization and refamiliarization that you can't really characterize some way of thinking of as a whole, it might contextually be one or the other

the one thing thats kinda sticking with me is philosophy as activity, like its not just that i have been rusty or out of practice but like, there was a kind of dogmatism to my thought that became fixed and uncontextual, continually rolled out, and the more it was repeated the more untrue it became

drawbacks of a backwards-looking way of life

the mathematical sections are good but well-trodden to me at this point so i don't have much to say on it

i think i have at some points been a despiser of scientific pomposity and scientific procedure of all kinds. safer heuristic when you've been burned but it's time to move past the trauma

Instead of entering into the immanent content of the thing, it is forever surveying the whole and standing above the particu­lar existence of which it is speaking, i.e. it does not see it at all.

break again. §56

using buzzwords like this is very goofy nooby undergradcore but its useful to invoke an immediate sense of what im reading yknow

preface, page 1

very good meta-philosophy, i'm looking forward to this

i have been too one-sided and havent been giving enough credence to the categorical. i've been a perpetrator of rapturous haziness

in a way im glad ive waited read, at the very least the experiences ive had since them have changed my perspective going into this

i'm not quite doing what i intended here hm

though this is still review, i'm sorta refresher

anyway im gonna take a break now im kinda tired from today. preface §13

ok here we go