So maybe I should be ready to admit to myself that I’m not that over her? Lol

Then again I feel like that whole “over someone” is very serial monogamy logic and I’m not sure if that was something I have been or should be aiming for

I def need to think more when I get home

Ummm I just saw gail lol

Honestly pretty miraculous it hasn’t happened yet, still surprising tho. I don’t think she saw me, or at least acted like she didn’t

I look supa cute today anyway so idc 😎 she looked nice too

Was waiting to cross and I walked by

Heart got super fluttery and couldn’t stop grinning for a bit

im so tirrrreeddddd i woke up at 1am after like 3 hrs sleep and ive been brain blasting since then now im sleeepyyy but i have class boooo

kant is a fucking banger dude how have i not looked into this before chasing the dragon of philosophy stimulation and kant is my dealer

i hate hume so much and kant is just beating his ass in the qrts

holy shit this is really interesting actually i dont know what to make of this yet https://www.reddit.com/r/askphilosophy/comments/gjtvb0/is_virtuous_circularity_taken_seriously_in/

this is @ "rethinking economic returns" especially. like "we need a new accounting system to include all different types of work and need to get rid of the barrier between private and public returns" and its like ya thats great i agree but how do you expect that to manifest

in reality... like descriptively, firms are self interested in valorizing capital so ,.... whats your model for bringing this about and keeping it?

like the whole "society with markets, not a market society" is such liberal cope bullshit lmfao

T-T this chapter went downhill so fast bruh

oh also i should be clear ofc ofc they arent critical enough of coercive education, even tho they do have better takes than most (quote from sam carr's research)

even tho they quote from ppl like freire ultimately theyre clearly much more influenced by left libs like keynes or dewey

dont get me wrong theres much better stuff to learn from them than 90% of other things, but it can be very confusing and almost utopian imo to think that those reforms can be made and stay in place while keeping the economic base

???? literally ???? @ you ???? wtf

like clearly theyre partially aware, i just think its way way way too optimistic to think that people will go to bat for your new human capital model enough to combat the propaganda and hegemony of capitalists and the state but keep shootin shooter

alright but yeah fr tho very very good values throughout, not perfect but im only getting so upset bc i feel like theyre so close to me but minor differences yk? but fr very good book

like i havent been highlighting at all bc im tired but there are absolutely some bangers in here

like i feel like theres really strong principles and perspectives, but a bit too much optimism about the capitalist state being able to adopt and maintain this vision

maybe useful for people agitating and pressuring, and definitely helpful to get people to see better possibilities, i just worry about its realistic limitations for implementation

again tho this is kinda inherent to a work like this, so im not saying they should have done this differently, just like thinking about future ideas building off

like im always skeptical of ideas that are like "we need to do better at incorporating x into this system" and its like yea ok but youre not proposing a material method for how that can continually be brought about, so instead it will just be eroded for purposes of profit/power

finally got a pdf of The Death of Human Capital and it is really good :)

specifically chapter 10 rethinking labor supply

obv a bit workerist, statist and market oriented, but really great short term ideas, and way to bridge between contemporary neolib econ and more leftist perspectives

oh and i should add more context: this was 2nd meeting ever, this is their first semester club. also an example of what the guy said came to mind about why i hated his takes lol

he literally thought that if patients messed up tracking their biometrics and the AI diagnosed incorrectly and gave wrong prescription and the patient died - thats just the mistake of the patient and thats their bad. like ??? what horrendous individualistic cringe posting whats

wrong with you. I made it clear i wasnt saying we should blame to AI or even anyone in particular, but he wasnt even interested in having like some failsafe thing to make sure shit like that didnt happen, was just totally uninterested.

like holy shit that is the rationalist policy prescription of someone who comes from 1980s economics or 1700s philosophy like yikes bro

lol i have so much excited energy rn even tho its p late for me im feeling really good lol its cute :)

Chaser but for premed people (not for their money but as an indicator for brain power)

I’m imagining the economic models now. Instead of labor markets and education as an indicator it’s just: major typology -> my friend

Note to self: if your future irl friends are pre med you have a problem and deserve to be made fun of for your weird affinity

And she thought that was a really good idea and we chatted with McKenna (other exec) about how I found out about the club and about how it was a scuffed night and it just all felt really natural it was great!! Felt supa confident :))

I also talked a bunch (not dominating amount) which was cool! Oh I forgot to mention when I ended convo it was cool and felt rly good. While ppl were leaving they were like trying to get ppl to come back and reassuring it’s normally better etc

So when I left I was like I guess I’ll see you guys in 2 weeks :) and they were excited lol very fun interaction

Reminder and brought back

But yeah the best part I think was at the end when everyone else was leaving and I asked a question to Emily about sending the case studies before meetings so people could read them (I like doing that and also there was lots of confusion among ppl about exactly what the case was)

We basically had a discussion on a case study about AI replacing healthcare providers. They planned for it to be a debate thing where people argued for an assigned side but it quickly broke down lol

But it’s super cool that the execs were like super go with the flow and chill. Also they had good takes!!! Really interesting talking ethics with ppl with more specific knowledge about an area bc they’ll catch things I won’t

Like for ex I was like well AI doesn’t have the ability to be conversational and answer clarifying questions like people can and Emily was like yeah but do physicians (don’t know the word) even do that now? Like I’m super divorced from reality of practice and it’s cool to be

Then there was a junior, the only other non woman there and he was kinda know it all bro and was terrible at conversation lol and I hated his takes

But!!! The 2 exec ppl were super chill and I had great interactions with them back in forth and had super chill convo after but I’m getting ahead of myself

I mean it was totally scuffed bc everyone was gone for exams but it was endearing in that way

Only 6 people, and 2 were exec ppl. 1 freshman was totally quiet the entire time, 1 freshman was like… ok maybe this is ableist but I think they were on the spectrum (I wanna say not in bad way!! But don’t wanna just be coping)