i used emojis in a post yesterday that looked suspiciously LLM-ey but it was just a list of level of feature ability ✅ 🟡 ❌

EW WHAT THE FUCK

account switcher for geriatrics, why do we keep doing this

and everything is round now

not all dreams need to be documented

kasey breaking free from bsky

me posting this:

i’m so mean to anarchists but only because they’re really dumb

i should ask kasey if there’s a term for a function f(x) that is entirely different from another function g(x) but for an absurd amount of values produces the same result

when we bringing democratic confederalism back chat

i read bookchin forever ago and got so bored dude

i should pick that shit back up honestly, i need to get in touch with the repetitious platitude-spewing dregs of political theory (anarchists and their ilk)

it’s so late already and i accomplished absolutely nothing today

i acquired some juicy drama details ig but it came along with the duty of being a therapist

"i wonder what ppl are making on atproto these days" "oh ok schema war crimes good to know"

"not an atproto app in the slightest" type shit

if you told me this was an effort to embarrass paul by executing Option 2 to its conclusion i would believe you

i’ve been a grouchy little baby today huh

i temporarily thought i was caught up and then i opened my email with a dozen new tasks

kayleen is the annoying type of helicopter parent who is annoying and also useless

stop calling me please

i am going to block you if i get one more notification

i dislike the windows operating system

you’ll never believe what this was for

anarchists love copyright

i had misconceptions about creation and its implicit demandingness

like i had this self-conception, self-justification even, that i would curate things or write things or post things and that because it wasn’t a direct message or notification to an individual, it carried no obligations because others had to opt-in and seek it out. i was allowed to be a careless.

and for some things that’s true, like some people will never listen to the updates i make on their playlists, but i also have people that will listen to everything. i don’t really know what that entails for any personal “shoulds”

i think the most extreme extension of this was passing along hours of kasey convos directly to juliet and i still kinda had the attitude of “eh it’s whatever, listen or not, it’s just available.” but that’s not a realistic model of people

if it’s not clear, i liked this thought process because i got to be vulnerable and exposed as much as the observers wanted to pursue, but i wasn’t like shoving it down their throat or forcing it. it allowed me to have this distant form of connection

or like that was the ideal. it also was a stand-in for direct social interaction which i’m rather poor at. in fairness, this sorta half-worked half of the time so it’s understandable how i got hung up on it.

but yea i dont really know where that leaves me. like im doing the thing right now by posting here instead of in a diary, and i dont think ill totally remove that type of communication from my repertoire

but also i think ive learned that not everything has to take that form all of the time, and there a pretty severe limitations and sharp edges i’ll try to keep away from

i will be speaking in non-sequiturs to fill space because i don’t respect you

i’m annoyed with tech rn !

and humans! but mostly tech!

looking at a vibe coded app with vibe coded docs and vibe coded issues is almost eerie, it’s like some pathetic flesh puppet project

somehow getting let down softly while wing-manning stings worse than getting rejected yourself

i think i gotta retreat for a sec, the air is a little too heavy and thick and i’d like to clear my head

these are ideal types but roughly instantiated by annie (the other one) and cinny

well i dunno about that whole weberian nonsense, those are just the two that recurrently come up when reflecting on that theme, although there are plenty more for duration

brain fried no thoughts bweh

idk i know this is all cliche and boomer shit but like i’ve been so impressed by it lately. the world is pretty forgiving but life starts now and you should start playing

i expressed this all very poorly but idc it’s approximate

for a concrete thing that’s been on my mind it’s like, i think there are some really cool people i may have wanted to talk to but just didn’t, and while i don’t really have the energy or interest to pursue that now, i see the companions i have gathered and how much life we’ve shared together

it doesn’t take much and before you know it it’s like wow these are my people, which is inspiring for the counterfactual cases and encouraging to cross paths with new people