my how i've changed

i’m in my own little world and i won’t let you drag me out yet

not quite daydreaming but experiencing what i can on my own terms

i really do be wearing my heart on a short sleeve

gotta shower then i can think more

i used to do this strat all of the time to mental reset, its really cool

kinda like peeing when youre drunk except good instead of evil

honestly i think a lot of authors deserve a second visit from me (or third, fourth, fifth...)

i've often expressed frustration with the limitations i find in those i consider roughly my allies, but still refused to take my enemies seriously.

despite espousing something akin to "kill the great men of history, but don't forget to pillage their corpses" and generally being opposed to the anti-intellectual tendencies of The Left, i still think there was some moral reluctance on my end to allow myself to be swallowed by the text

and i don't think that was entirely misguided, like maybe at that stage of underdevelopment it was necessary for me to be obstinate. in any case i don't judge myself for it, but i think i'm ready to start wandering a little more.

it's kind of a weird grab-bag of influences but i think the process of becoming acquainted with stirner, nietzsche, n0thanky0u, and most significantly geuss were really the ones who had the most influence on me loosening that restriction.

i'll also note that the process of becoming acquainted was a lingering one, and it was one where i had to take their influence and live a lot more life before it foregrounded itself

stirner was an important step towards the relinquishing of influence that did not serve me, nietzsche was one of the first authors i took very seriously that clearly had Bad Views TM, n0 was ambiguous for a while and required repeated exposure to understand his shtick, and that intermediate time

where i didn't have the comforting reassurance and had to sit with the ambiguity while being intently interested was an important emotional moment. and geuss really demonstrated practically how to go about engaging with these authors by example.

he took influence from a host of sources, illustrated how supposedly more similar thinkers were actually disastrous and worse than the supposed alternative (ex. rawls // nozick),

the shocking ways to find value in unexpected places, and how to tease out something meaningful from those who are held in high regard but regularly superficially engaged with, and the inversions and appropriations you can make out of dead-ends.

"they do not make a the good any more good by making it eternal; a white thing that lasts a long while is no whiter than what lasts but a day." MAD AURA

okay what the fuck am i becoming an aristotelian

i've sure been thinking an awful lot about ends lately

its just hard because he got a crazy amount right on really significant methodological points that were later discarded, so its hard not to be impressed

i think i've also just grown up a bit, i'm less prone to being foolishly dismissive, so its one of the first times i've been able to approach him sympathetically. i've also had some exposure to other writers that have warmed me up to him

dude shout out to librevox narrators

i think about this often

the united states government kept me from discovering userscripts for years because they were scared

"no person could possibly handle that many arcane keybindings" they cry out in horror

local scriptkiddie invents vimium from first principles with no transferable skills, awes onlookers

lowkey our patch notes suck, there should be a big fuck-off wiki with all the designs split out by application

ew wtf you're taking cognitive's loads? your kids are gonna have genetic deformities

just a little joke for the nebula developers and psychologists in the chat

“evil willow” you ain’t seen nothin yet 😈

jk lmao that sounds like effort

“my reputation precedes me” and if they don’t run it’s a red flag

i’m actually pretty easily flattered

as long as it comes from the right people

fooly cooly baseball samples entail +20,000 aura points

shitty boy music, that’s my shit

god that tempo bump at the end is pretty cool

i’m a sweetheart can’t you tell

they’re calling me a vain and frail creature and they’re right

i don’t like making music posts, you don’t belong here

i think it indicates something about an intended audience that i dislike maybe

GURL UR SO LOST LMFAOO 😭😭😭

i’m debugging blackbox code and you’re taking 3 weeks to come back with a rule tester activity 😭😭😭

showed up after the battle with a pool noodle

i’ll become fluttershy yet, just you wait

i’m convinced the registration training staff are conspiring against me

to whomever at microsoft broke links in teams, i wish u

the rest of the sentence is left as an exercise to the reader in minecraft