during the interview for my job i had to prepare a presentation on an arbitrary topic so i gave a lecture on the historico-philosophical significance of visual novels as an aesthetic medium
to survive reality at its most extreme and grim, artworks that do not want to sell themselves as consolation must equate themselves with that reality. radical art today is synonymous with dark art; its primary color is black.
i have this problem sometimes where i say things i don't believe in order to keep the conversation going smoothly but then i trap myself when the fake position i've concocted is internally inconsistent
my AniList setup is comf:
* mnemonic in my uLauncher (think dmenu): "a [title]"
queries anilist api for anime's url, and opens in my browser. also works as mpv script from a file
* Ctrl+Alt+A global keybinding to open my profile
* custom browser search engine
i’m scared to speak, if i open my mouth i worry ill just scream in anguish. do not think, do not feel, you can’t change it anyway. best to ignore it, right?
i've felt myself become a lot less curious and critical lately. i just don't have the energy or willpower to intentionally introduce any more conflict into my life
the rampant misunderstandings of marx can largely be attributed to the common impoverished conception of normativity. marx as applied ethicist is a poor etiolated thing and easily dismissible. many pollute their thinking by imposing a public/private dichotomy as prerequisite for normative validity