pompous language aside, this concretely means: - isolating myself - listening to sadboi trap - playing video games - immersing myself in projects - neglecting the women in my life

at my core i'm the same person i was 8 years ago the egyptianism of my desires is disappointing, and they are locked in place by being indexed to my idea of freedom.

i'm incredibly unremarkable, and that's sometimes embarrassing - but i wish i were more unremarkable in many ways. i wish i was invisible, to the point of being left alone completely. maybe then i could become something worth mentioning.

something i find really fascinating is the volume of creative works within their medium. like at some point in time it was probably possible to read every book in one lifetime, but that's clearly no longer the case. and since literacy is no longer restricted to specific class, the content of books

in most cases machine translation is perfectly serviceable (as long as it wasn't done forever ago)

don't wanna be seen

steam on linux makes the VN experience way more streamlined than i ever remember it being on windows actually. literally just enable proton and set launch options to "LANG=ja_JP.UTF-8 %command%" and youre good to go wtf

*installing eng patch for a vn* README.txt "instructions: [youtube link] windows 10 instructions: [youtube link]" oh interesting, they assume linux by default? *clicks link* nvm lmao windows 7

neat, i made a manpage

"There's a time when the operation of the machine becomes so odious, makes you so sick at heart, that you can't take part, you can't even tacitly take part. And you've got to put your bodies upon the gears and upon the wheels, upon the levers, upon all the apparatus, and you've got to make it stop."

1:05:55

:~$ python3 >>> var = "your mom" >>> var += "my dick" >>> var 'your mommy dick'

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puppy-girls post twink-death: woof

i spend all day dealing with abstractions dreamed up by the worst humanity has to offer, and it has an utterly corrosive affect on my imagination.

"Suffering, pain, and dissonance are fundamental parts of beauty, not simply accidental."

been thinking about the sacred chao a lot lately

im ready to admit i have a fetish for short girls

i mean this with 100% i mean this with 1000%

“are you wearing eye shadow?” “no i’m just sleep deprived”

this is the most serious and important utopian contribution to the world rn /gen /pos

my scar has faded a bit more and that’s pleasant i suppose

ugh, fatigue and disgust. it all comes back so quickly. i’m bitter and tired and anxious and stressed all over again. it’s fucking revolting.

instantiations of my fav genre of internet woman musician: - moon moods - pinkmoondoll9shitzu - brynn </3

Yukito Kishiro rn: Can you guys not do this? It's not you, it's my character. It's ok to relate to his looks, vibes and be inspired, but this feels a bit invading. Am i wrong for feeling this?🥲

i’m her today

kinda wanna get my ever given stuck in her suez canal

idc im using os.popen and you can’t stop me

To read a work critically is to read it simultaneously as aesthetic form and a social document of the barbaric history in which it is produced.

one of my favorite features of iOS is the inability to access any dotfiles, great work lads

it’s so disheartening. i’ve become too exhausted to appreciate dissonance or resistance; anything other than affirmative drivel is now intolerable.

look at my anarchists dawg

oh this is a cute tab i didn’t realize existed

weber on protestant asceticism

wanna break ties with everyone i care about so i can CTB guilt free

i am filled with contempt for what i have become

i can’t enjoy music anymore. my existence is dull and bleak.

bash scripting on the clock don’t tell bossman

death, taxes, and mid white boys bagging 10/10s

i think it's good to remind myself how relatively new i am to more technical things - especially considering it's all been self-taught side-interest ofc it's good not to be complacent but it's easy for me to feel like i'm really incompetent (which i am, but the limited time puts it in context ig)

my ration of a few hours of low-energy low-focus time is complete for the night :( let's see if tomorrow i'm lucky enough to even get that :D

lol i swapped to my discord alt and the last thing i had queued in this channel was a banger

there’s so much lost potential with monotonous and locked down computing like imagine the rices we would see if neckbearding wasn’t a pre-requisite

i hadn’t done tech project stuff for a while and it’s rly comf to come back just wish i had any time to continue work on them

such a good chapter

i haven't had an interesting thought for over a year