okay ngl this was the worst spontaneous 7am-8pm shift ever

i want my life back bro 😭😭😭 it's gonna be like this all week too

i was pulled aside and asked about my pronouns

they recommended i put they/them in work bio and i was like ehhh i don't wanna make it a thing

"i thought you were they/them but sarah definitely heard your manager say he/him so we weren't sure"

i told them any/all was fine but they're using they/them going forward

spoke wayyyyyy too soon lmfao

my evil meeting got cancelled!! woohoo

solidarity sister

they call it "mid" west emo for a reason, they just accidentally forgot the space

your turnaround time always impressed me, normally i'm used to my enhancement requests getting tagged "useful and optional" and future'd for a decade

really really great redesign. might also be nice to have a date/time picker to fill in the cursor unix microseconds

they're giving me a popcorn bowl / artisan mug for my 3 year anniversary

strange corpo

the reason taro stopped working is that i forgot to enforce the boundaries i set in the skeet contrasting myself with kademlia

taro became gothic church with a threadgate, which is better but not by much

you can watch, just don't tap the glass please

feels strange to be transparent about my misgivings as well as excitements

still not sure i've got the balance right, both are a little self-centered

alright the weekend honeymoon is over, see you in a few

is it autistic if i do an autistic thing autisticly after foreknowledge and consideration of how autistic it is

about to go to the humiliation factory wish me luck

gonna give drearii a try

skeetgen visualization makes it (slightly) less pathetic to reference but yea u have to be mindful about it

also if ill say that, at least for me, deletion had a lot of causes and motivations bound up in it. so sure maybe sometimes references can make death less meaningful, but making contextual carve-outs isn't so bad because there isn't some central commitment i'm betraying

im less concerned about respect for the dead and more concerned about how contact with the dead will affect the living

i'm much happier as an enby (boy) than as a boy (enby)

as much of a meme label as it is, the most accurate sexuality for me is demi-grey-sexual

which is funny considering i transitioned from being demi-gray-romantic

yes the difference in spelling is significant. the sexuality is softer and less bold even when present, and the romance was harsh, cloudy, and opaque

there's no more escaping it, after aesthetic theory i'm returning to hegel

thinking about non-categorical obligation and it's relaly cool, i wanna explore that more

responsibility, limitation, imposition, i love the demandingness of it all

i'm watching the scene where hitagi is toying with koyomi in the back seat with her father up front and its reminding me of the times in high school when gail and i would do hand stuff on long roadtrips with my parents, those were good times

genuinely shocking how horny we were, hormones are crazy

not that it hasn't been said before but evangelion : darling in the fraxx :: monogatari : bunny girl senpai except the latter is like way better on both the original and the knock-off

the score is magnificent

i'm overselling it in a "a feast for the ears" sort of way but it is fitting and pleasant

and like extremely varied, its impressive

this is lovely btw

i'm gonna shower now but it is imperative that i finish s1 today, optimistically we're looking at a multi-hobby willow for the next little bit but we'll see if i can keep up. i have to pace and push myself

ever since gaining weight my posture has been worse as well

this isn't stated in the tone of "oh no my life is all downhill" more in the tone of "huh that's kind of interesting". i think because before i was very sensitive to every having my stomach touch itself or other surrounding parts but now that i'm more filled out it's not practical to care

i love scenes where people just stand around and talk it's literally peak

from the moment suruga was on screen i was like "oh yep, i get why it's obsessed" lol

i watched 8 episodes of monogatari years ago and damn, i really wish i had stuck with it. this is fantastic

i think i'm more grateful to be watching it now though

i accidentally blurted out and told danii i loved it on our last call. that wouldn't have been particularly embarrassing, if i didn't also do it a second time immediately after

not that i need to hear the words back, i just don't want her to be in a pressured position. words are cheap anyway

i think i'm insufficiently motivated to do anything about that for now though, which is fine