i love getting an email that opens with "i'm thinking of doing a dubious thing"

im never reading this kant book bro i should get it off my desk

i should probably feel bad for ghosting before but meh, i was kinda not so interested. it wasn't so much upkeep though, so i don't mind. hope they're alright. we'll see when the response comes in how they feel lol

eat your heart out david

gonna shower and do fun stuff now

it's the worst when you do one reply too many and then you have to spend the next five clarifying that you in fact agree

you can stop digging the hole for yourself any time !!

wait i forgot i'm goated that was easy

hyp*rspace on a 4k monitor is how it was intended to be used istg, actually unusable otherwise

ah yes i disabled copilot at startup, but i really wanted microsoft 365 copilot to be added to my startup apps with an overriding keyboard shortcut, thank you microslop

crestfallen is beautiful name for a baby enby

willow is dead, long live willow

im in my wren arc still but name swapping is too inconvenient

i should take vaca days soon

i like that my voice is variable

relative strangers she/her-ing me is cute, thanks bas

i love when i have a case of "i should really do something else but i can't tear myself away from this activity"* *when the activity is some aesthetic engagement because i know it's good for me. i could probably learn to tear myself a little more from other things and stop over overextending myself

despera is never coming out, it's over chat

i might read the novel

hypothesis: lots of relationships aren't actually that hard for me, it's just that public microblogging for an audience and signing myself up for repeated confinement to others' living spaces that sucks

ive improved at all of the above though so it's easier

how's the line go? fail again fail better meow i'm a kitten

i didn't realize id start a full elf vc last night lol, sorry for passing out

they're inventing new backchanneling methods to deal with me

talking with danii today made me realize how much my personality shift was a rejection of my relationship style with ollie

i still can't bring myself to feel personal animous towards her in basically any way, but everything about who i was in that relationship is exemplary of what i never want to tolerate again.

+1 tally to being grateful to people breaking my heart so i can become a better person

willow couldn't die until hollow did

fitting pet name in any case

my room is so dark that my screen keeps turning itself off thinking it's in a pocket

i'm gonna do the everything challenge this year except just the music part

id like to stay above 100 tracks / day but the quality matters much to me than the quantity. i'll probably reach 10k unique tracks pretty painlessly as a byproduct but im not so focused on that. getting back into music theory proper would likely be beneficial

linus torvalds abolished the law of value

focus fire comms are less valuable than fight planning comms and there's probably something allegorical in that

it's kind of funny when streaming service uploads don't trim the penultimate song on an album with a hidden track

i was kinda just chilling the other week after a record finished and boom 10 mins later i was surprised when audio happened again

it is a shame though if that track is actually good since it's more difficult to listen in isolation

i get the argument that syntax highlighting shouldn't do everything but like, but it's actually pretty useful if it does ngl

im really looking forward to talking with u tmrw

idc if i had a boring week or if this call is shorter than the last, i just miss danii and want to want to spend some time with it again

the texts this week were imperfect but pleasant, probably a little stilted still, it'll get easier but i still expect we'll be most comfy and fulfilled calling no matter what

accidentally watched old xqc x nyyxxii vod while highdosing prog, i didn't last 5 mins before texting annie

it's surprising em has roughly the same amount of followers despite the much more active social graph, plus i was given secret buffs from the labeler incident

okay but not like literally though, itd probably be a little trite

not sure when it started but it's nice i think, and it does make me feel better to tell myself the things i wish others would say

it's also more convenient at expressing the differing opinions i have, rather than stumbling over myself and backtracking. i also don't need to maintain consistent identities, i can just address the latest speaker in the second-person