there are naive laudatory ways to engage with Great Men, and naive rejections are just as disastrous. even the framing of “what holes can you poke in his arguments” or “what did he get right” rather than “what use can you make of his discussion”.
idk i think there’s something rotten about the undergrad essay to demonstrate understanding and mastery, as it treats the text as far too dead and doesn’t allow for appropriation as one’s own. which honestly makes everything a lot more difficult to understand !!!
also like ! it doesn’t teach you how to direct your attention, everything is flat and sedimentary. part of what it means to engage with a text is to ignore certain parts and focus your attention in an uneven fashion.
usually my gratefulness for reliance arises in contexts that are a lot more mediated and indirect, but i am always overcome by the feeling when others perform service work for me
peeked at someone’s messages:
“seattle has lots of liberals and i cannot”
“worse than portland?”
“portland is a shithole”
chat do you think he’s a socialist or
although i think it was slightly too small a fit
i had already outgrown it in a way, or maybe it was aptly constraining (pseud reading too much into a metaphor)