nah ur good im just being a grouchy cunt

i mean…

hegel noooo

i’ll get right on that

e.g. ?

i would probably just get fired if i had to step away from work for a while. so im just stuck in a position where i can’t get a break until something snaps completely and im unable to continue.

something i miss about life before adulthood is that i used to be able to avoid some responsibilities because of mental health issues

whether or not i enjoyed them was somewhat beside the point, they gave my suffering some sort of objective validity, and made me feel like the world wasn’t so ironclad and locked down

i had 4 different doctors that i would repeatedly skip class to go to, and i got sent to an inpatient facility for a bit.

especially the latter was mentally liberating in the sense of being confronted with a completely alien environment and being impressed with how wide the range of human experience might be, which is maybe a little odd given the nature of the institution.

that’s not really an option any more though. the cog will continue until it breaks.

this is what it’s like hanging out with kasey

conjured it out of thin air x.com/liveleakdoll...

i haven’t been to a doctor for quite a while. i kinda just want a break from the world

i’ve been in and out of sleep all day and i don’t feel any more rested. everything feels hazy. it’s been weeks at this point where have viscerally felt like i’m being whittled away and unable to recover

i am severely tired and unwell

lfg

does this mean we can have sex in the bathrooms

how do we have so many LGB associations ??? 😭

erm thats a lot of pressure but "Who Needs a World View?" or "Enlightenment, Genealogy, and the Historicality of Concepts" maybe 

idk i feel like you actually wouldn't be very impressed by geuss bc its usually nothing strictly novel but idk

whoopsie, drearydev sure is a skittish little kitty

what the hell soap breached containment

:3

# waow

real test ```py for soap in soaps: if soap === "jonas": print("hi chat") ```

speak truth to power 🗣️

yehaw

no he’s right

if i’m being more helpful, it might be useful to see this as a theoretically enlightening exaggeration a la adorno but acknowledging it as such diminishes its purpose so i refuse to do so mrow dreary.dev/blog/reply-t...

but also i literally, concretely believe he is 100% correct and i never want to do anything

good goyo

but remember the antithesis is also false :)

yea your story just gave me similar vibes to his lol, the not doing things is more a me temperament

several folks like char and futur have made really good progress

reminds me of

My world was forcibly closed. I struggled, but I sunk down below consciousness as if there were weights tied to my legs. " " I screamed something out, but the words held no shape. The outline of my ego lost its shape, and I sunk down into the depths, like a sugar cube dissolving in water.

My ego tried to drag itself back out. The continuity of myself being myself. My consciousness melted and split apart. I lost the hands with which to struggle. I lost the arms with which to struggle.

Down into the depths. Down into the depths. I sunk below the surface. The depths of my mind. A sinking self. A disappearing world. It watched the world. The lost... world.

Teeth grit and bitter wind gusts against a face. Frigid tears stream out. Utopia is out of reach; relief evades me.

sorry i’m just confused and desperate

:D

i’m overwhelmed chat