i did this and it eventually induced a mental breakdown, godspeed sister

wow im scatterbrained sorry

no point in being sad for you

im gonna try coding in light theme today because there are no free conference rooms and i can't turn off the lights

i gotta figure out why ur crashing little buddy

new plan: try except sleep try again

i mean like theoretically i already have this multiple places but u hate my guts so

i acquired it then because i was thinking about how unrequited desire maintains interest, but really it was more akin to the obsession experienced with a random reward schedule

"the experiment might be said to demonstrate a sort of superstition. the bird behaves as if there was a causal relation between its behavior and the presentation of food, although such a relation is lacking"

yay my pulsar finished with no true errors

time feels like it's kinda gliding around me, unpleasant

2026 is the year of the junk food vegan!

hey no fair you reached sentience before me

it doesn't matter if you got a head start, don't you remember the tortoise and the hare?

this was very funny to me last night, the idea of competing with someone to achieve more sentience

new room today and i still probably can't focus for music but ill survive

@kasey.cafe says this to me daily

more like she talks to herself like this daily

okay fine i backpedaled a little but it'll be good when im not so busy in a sec

i like the light from my shitty cheap keyboard and i like the sounds from my shitty expensive phone

as sensory inputs go, touch is more or less a logical necessity and sight a practical necessity, but hearing is often the most notably pleasurable

i should appreciate my eyes more

kasey told me she likes my voice when i'm not in public

me too

more like that futur guy is cute and talented and makes me a better person and shows me lots of kindness

oof embarrassing

in fairness this is literally undocumented but in retrospect its intuitive enough

everything is just double humiliating with backups over your shoulder lol

they should make closed back humans

all the sounds stay inside

ikr it's one of the best compliments

go-lives are boring, it's all charging

someone had a fake fol issue and i wrote a zrzl tho

sometimes u gotta stop worrying about the intricacies and internal architecture of retarded shit

and sometimes you're forced to care

less often that you make it out to be

this isn't a pro-freedom post, as i trust you know

i should stop saying that but old nietzschean habits die hard

alright i talked too much, ill be back later

youtube disabled my links i hate you google

i know i shouldnt even be reading it but it's really funny that she just regurgitates justifications for the state in such overt ways

like we've got hobbes and kant and a full-throated literal liberal paternalism (mama!). penny the anti-republican queen

there's a lot of these that are like "wow that's a deep thought!" if you've never read any philosophy and you don't realize she's poorly articulating the defunct history of western thought

like just watch the end of this lecture

okay lowkey i'm the one slopping it up i'm being just as unrigorous in my response and thoughts about this but that's because the original is so jumbled lol

in some ways it reminds me of those proto anarchists that were like "guys let's just simplify the rules to a dozen or so and hang them up at the town square" but i don't really feel like drawing out the connection

i also think like, jealousy as frustration with another's attention has a lot more going for it than it normally gets credit for. mostly because the cultural forms it continually finds itself bound to are grotesque