it’s terrible tho, i don’t use youtube as much as soundcloud these days, and youtube’s ability to categorize things as music is poor ime. all of these stats are very warped (slice of life podcast is cozy tho ig)
seriously this makes me want to kill myself. sep-nov ‘24 playlist is fucking disgusting. i hate being reminded i was once a person. i don’t like my metaphors and i want to punish myself for letting me become who i am
don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t feel don’t feel don’t feel don’t feel don’t feel don’t feel
die die die die die die die die die
:)
it’s super painful because i spend all my time at work, where i get blank stares if i use works as simple as “deterministic”, so i have to dumb myself down
i also need to get back to posting a bunch, and making sure it’s all garbage. my usage here has ballooned but never on my own profile. now that i have friends it’s easier to just watch their more interesting lives
fwiw i’m not satisfied with the explanation i gave above either, and i know it doesn’t capture your ‘why’. as usual, i can feel the impression much better than i can articulate