post-feuerbachean marxist account of how going on going on SS forums and reading people's detailed plans make me feel less suicidal as a compensatory fantasy, but that the desire will persist until the material cause of suffering is alleviated.

nietzschean analysis of how i start as weak and suffering and am given a project that occupies me and distracts from pain in the short term, namely turning aggression against myself. but by turning my aggression against myself, i am now more weak and debilitated, and the descending spiral continues.

in any case, i am clearly not taking anyone out of context and my suicidal ideation is just like christianity

truuuu goats is never coming back theres no point tho i do kinda feel bad when i'm ringing for tourneys and inting my brains out

my main goal is to blow up

it's actually shocking how rapidly my skill has atrophied at this game lol

i think i'm so clever/angsty when i'm vagueposting - no ur just a moron that doesn't source anything soundcloud.com/assclaps/oh-...

every time someone comes over to my place i need to screw my lightbulbs back in so they can “see in front of themselves” and “not run into things”. whats up with that?

ah yeh i see, i hope you can figure out something tolerable

i’m a wagie rn and all my favorite people (you among them now) are neets. if you can survive there’s nothing to be ashamed of imo. is there something you’d specifically like to do?

that made my heart smile and i audibly let out an “awww”. rly rly like that approach

i’ve done that a few times and it’s personally always been incredibly positive for me, but i’m more introverty so mileage may vary. it can be hard to tell the difference between relapse and requiring companionship, so if you do that just make sure to take care of yourself and don’t push too hard

yeah i mean that’s rly rly good. i’ve been too cowardly to crack my egg for years at this point so im glad you were able to. but i can defi understand the frustration of feeling stagnated elsewhere

relate so hard. at one point i had to detox by deleting all the apps and blocking the domains on my pc. my twitter looked like this for a while when i exclusively used it to message friends

totally get that, it’s really easy to slip from social media being parasitic on your interests to replacing them entirely

hm for false proximity, is it like relationships feel fake or unfulfilling? but yeah social media kinda inherently leads to attention bait even if you try to resist - gotta post normie repellant every so often just to keep yourself in check

:( fwiw i’ve really enjoyed interacting with you the past lil bit, any reason why?

everything okay?

i love doing my budget spreadsheet every month. what can i say, im just a techno-pilled swabian housewife =v=

playing with data is just so fun! and conditional formatting!

sending hugs :( i hope you can freely express your abundant love soon

i have acquired a smart tv and it makes me wanna die

i'm a lot more anxious posting now that i'm amassing cute bloomfies

delusional girls with anxiety disorders

ty! according to danbooru the character is from demon slayer but i have never read/watched so who knows

haha cute yours made me too ^-^

:3

i miss when we traded likes on our posts …. 💔⛓️ what? do i want to actually talk to her? ew no wtf

this genuinely isn’t about a singular person (i don’t even know if i’ve consistently had a relationship with that dynamic simultaneously), just a conglomeration of vibes

the dogs at my apartment complex are v homophobic in their defense i look extra faggy today

this will either be: - project completionist weekend - pick up new projects that will forever go unfinished weekend

all day work training. mind numb

obvi the guys an idiot but i’m genuinely curious what context would make this level of granularity actually useful (also lmao gold star you tried @ trans options)

also ofc it doesn’t have to be “useful” to be a good idea; it could just make people feel good. tho personally i’ve always felt very icky about those forms and have always just lied

sure but at that point why appeal to rights at all? just say “i have the power to stop you from doing things i don’t want you to” and call it a day

i’m not using enforcement as a moral category, it’s merely practical. if you lack the ability to back up your rights claims with force if necessary, you practically speaking have no rights.

yeah so enforcing your rights

what do you do if someone violates your natural rights?

tbh i think we largely agree on goals, i just don’t think de-historicized and reified rights are the way to get there

objective evidence that i’m becoming more normie over time

(winter 2022 vs year of 2023 recap)

pretty accurate summary of the trajectory of my year

i got a job in mid year and after i started im just depressed LOL

i’d be so curious to learn how they categorize music by artist when it’s not hosted by the direct author themselves. they seem to have a really hard time gathering info on my habits. even categorizing videos as music seems a bit difficult for them, does recap only count things available in yt music?

like i wonder what this stat would be if it counted derivative works or videos not on the official channel (maybe it can if it’s recognized thru content ID? but i doubt otherwise)

internal pops on even-layered cubes are the bane of my existence

i still have a bag of 6x6 pieces that i was never able to put together from like 9 years ago. i promise i tried so many times ;-; skill issue i suppose

it took me a while after being exposed to the term 'pair-bond' that it was being used to mean exclusive monogamous partnership. it's still kinda goofy to me; can you pls just be more forthright with your ideological commitments for the autistic homies in the chat

tho i imagine the ambiguity is not accidental, or is at least a welcome feature rather than a bug. the point is to naturalize and present the concept as value-neutral.