i think this basically does it tho

honestly the tone of these is too harsh, nowadays we exist within a culture where cynicism abounds but it is entirely misplaced, so the affirmative countermeasure has some bite to it, some real and necessary purchase as a twinkle of motivation to propel the dialectic forward

i live like this

i have so much music to catch up on (/pos /pos /pos)

i can’t wait to be off ios but it’s gonna be a pain to swap

I CANNOT MAKE IT THROUGH DOJA CAT WHY AM I TRYING

shoutout to everyone who chapters mkv files

godot is a cute character in phoenix wright

i predict that we'll actually see the increasing mainstream encroachment of metaphor into identity, with gender as its vector

i don't think this will extend to neopronouns for quite some time, out of practicality more than anything, but i do think it will be a similar sort of identification

take an obvious example, like dog girls and cat girls or w/e are pretty common in queer circles. sometimes it's transient, other times it's more persistent, but either way it's a recognizable application of metaphor that gets intertwined with gender

and i think this makes sense because gender as an identity assertion carries some of the most explicit performance corollaries without being as easily reduced to the behavioral. so like in contrast to vegan identity, which sure likely carries some cognitive content and potentially some expressive

characteristics, you can much easier arrive at reductive criteria to the absolute essentials of being a person who does consume animal byproducts. whereas gender is already such a grab-bag of messy characteristics and there is constantly room for boundary nudging

anyway i dont feel like writing out of the middle material to draw all the connections but tl;dr queer ppl are already doing funky gender stuff and so incorporating new material into their already shifting identity on that dimension can be a lot more natural, and depending on the context it can

either be something to stand out or assimilate into a new social context (sometimes both, i don't really feel like laying it all out). anyway, this is all very easily understood.

but then you'll also see things seeping into more mainstream consciousness, like the idea of a "golden retriever boyfriend" where its very similar, you're taking personality similarities and applying the metaphor (notably with a gender component!)

most of the time this is an external ascription but as we see more of those metaphors pop up i think we'll start to see more positive identifications with the metaphors to the extent that they'll start being assertions. what i don't know is if it'll be a casual seeping in for someone

where they'll just increasingly reference it slowly over time or if it will be a more "all at once" thing. obvi thats kinda on the level of the individual and that can happen all sorts of ways, so maybe not as important as the sociological phenomenon.

i do think it'll be fairly similar to trans people's identity shifts online, where content they see on social media will be an easy exposure method and way to explore safely. and for that matter, a lot of it will probably be limited to online interaction anyway, same as existing neogender experience

never beating the narcissist accusations

i think i can admit to myself that late '00s (and especially 2010s) music was kinda absolutely terrible

at least the kind of stuff i would normally defend

i was all warm and curled up like a roly poly if it was a mammal

"they are doomed" lives in my head rent free

a stealthy kind of domination in the form of expressions of affection

i’m partial to the naive reading of gloria as concrete individual rather than the abstraction. because my glorias are not perfect nor silent, that makes glory a possibility for me to achieve on my own terms with their indirect support (although not in any sort of subordinate way, for i reciprocate)

another way of putting it is that i don’t have to be more than i am with and for you all, and while i want to be something more for primarily internally located reasons and will enjoy the externalities with you, your eyes are not what drive me onward

needless to say the categories i’m using are all over the place but i’m not a poet so you’ll have to cut me some slack

i don’t think i have the right kind of unrequited feelings any longer to make gloria by mineral fit for me

i think i am proud of this

unsteady reciprocity? sure. intermittent anxiety? absolutely. emotional, clingy, reliant, immature? yea, often. but the admirative dependence and desire to relinquish myself to another are somewhat alien to me now.

maybe i just don’t trust anyone else for the task. which speaks to a certain disillusionment with the overestimations i’ve previously construed. by all means i will still wish for bold shoulders to hold my head, but i am my own clay, no one can take this from me.

i’m only able to feel this uneasy pride because of the confidence i gain through the relationships of my loved ones, and that’s a beautiful thing too

we should call more often hehe

i thought this said femboys instead, which yknow also would have been true

i got blocked by femboy philosophy for being an autistic wokeoid about my autism years ago

i was saying trivially true things in the ugly lefty jargon of the day so it was kind of deserved, but they didn’t get mad at that they got mad because they hated disabled people

i’m they/themming bc i simply do not know their preferences, sorry

i’m scared to banter with nat at this point because i’d prefer she not think of me exclusively as a combative whiny asshole

me to me: no you should not type “liquid ass” in chat

on the other hand i really should continue reading more contextualizing material and familiarizing myself with general community sentiment, even if i end up bored and disappointed by the engagement it still gets my mind some traction to spin, rather than just slowly spooling itself out

i enjoy exploring for myself but imposing ignorance upon myself yields lacking rigor and disorientation

aesthetics are a distinct subdomain philosophically but there is some carryover from broader lessons to learn about heroic independence and its futility. the practice (in multiple senses: composition, performance, consumption, analysis, critique) is similarly distinct from its theory but not quite

i could map this out dialectically with quotes from big a but instead i’ll just say trust me bro

i’m gonna play with ror2 additional graphics colors tmrw, seems like an easy thing to screw up but maybe there are some references somewhere

excited for tomorrow

i like my life

i should really go to bed and i know i'm not in a lip critic mood but i am listening anyway

dreadful really, i should stop soliciting suggestions