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.Oct 9, 2021

too bad!

.Oct 9, 2021

im writing a philosophy paper and i always get caught up in studying and understanding a perspective and in the process im just constantly like "ok is this coherent" without regard for whether its true or not and then when i go to critique it im like "but i cant!! its coherent!"

u know that your ribs can be uneven if you have no core muscles? wack

I really need to learn to moderate my mental illness lol - just a little anorexia as a treat. I always go too hard fast

Counting calories works but consumes so much attention and upkeep. I guess better than not having any energy and being overall less stable and effective

Logically I know true but feels fucking trash to eat

Forgot foggy classes and just being totally checked out - not just like oh I’m not interested but like I physically couldn’t focus if I wanted to. My body feels exhaustion

today is gender euphoria day :)

feeling confident and pretty, took plenty of pics, got to wear cute new pink sweatshirt! so happy lol

Ridiculous but idc!!! Feeling good! :)

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Pressures performance, more that it’s self policing) but yeah was really nice to transition from that mode with him. Still don’t fully understand how that transition happens, I think there’s a moment where enough chemistry happens in convo (not chemistry exclusive to “romantic”

relations to be clear) where genuine bits slip out and goes from there. Also moments with some effort as well, like just saying fuck it and sending something more out of comfort zone. Also helps when interlocutor is also perceived as being genuine and open as well, talking about

How they feel or personal things. Usually I’m not good at probing and stuff but idk I was motivated ig bc I enjoy talking w Ryno, and also realized (from what I could tell) is fine with talking too but is just awkward lol

I think it was an important confidence boost, and I’m even feeling better going out today and being more comfortable acting fem (not femme bc that is problematic!) that little social reinforcement is really important, humans are odd and cute

Also had really good and long convo with Ryno too :) I really like him

Also I’m making this my banner lmao it’s so good

It was really nice esp after that thread I made the other day talking about “authenticity”. Ryno is still p awk lol but I was able to express myself in a way I was comfortable with, without feeling like I was pressured into a performance (not that anyone ever really explicitly

Yesterday I tried to explain school abolition in DSA lol idk if I did a very good job. I get so nervous and flustered in groups too big, but there were only like 10 people. Really need to work on eye contact with people

Someone at my DSA meeting cited Lenin and kropotkin back to back

Are there allosexuals that chase asexuals? I can imagine but the motivation would have to be so interesting

“I get enough sex from the rest of my polycule, I just need someone to go to the farmers market with :3”

Someone that feels sexual attraction but doesn’t enjoy sex itself? Ig depends on how idiosyncratic you wanna be about defining things

Guy who just wants to test their self control

def hitting the depression and lethargy stage of not eating well, so annoying

forgot this weird feel where tummy is so empty you feel like youre gonna vomit. but also bazaar that i dont feel hungry at all lol, body has just given up on cues ig

Cat is the only person I see post good takes on insta, mostly organizing (thats real not performative) but also stuff like this

And yeah I mean it’s a bit hard to take seriously in insta format but fk it dude it’s getting there :)

Related :(

fck

i found rlly cute femboy porn but was incognito and now i cant find him T-T (different from pic)

yay i found!! https://www.pornhub.com/model/kiwamine theyre enby, cute :3

super jealous of this skin and shaving, really clean, must take forever

I hate that nitzsche was right about defining words, it means I’ve gotta read all of history before speaking

quoted malatesta is my paper lmfao

Edited bits after, but this basically it

https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/brian-a-dominick-animal-liberation-and-social-revolution#toc11 this is the best vegan text omg https://youtu.be/KViYiDn-p60

theanarchistlibrary.org

Animal Liberation and Social Revolution

Brian A. Dominick Animal Liberation and Social Revolution a vegan perspective on anarchism or an anarchist perspective on veganism, with a preface by Joseph...

https://t.co/PlN9BSu2Uo im brain blasting i hate these like 3 word terms with idiosyncratic meanings fuuuck T-T https://t.co/xbxgY5ebpB you fool, how could you have mistaken socially neccesary labor time for lower phase constant abstract labor value time

theacheron.medium.com

How “Socialist” Can Commodity Production Really Get?

Commodity Production has been a hot topic in Marxist debates in the last century. This article serves to clarify its meaning, role and…

Hmmm it is possible I have been misusing femme, and should instead be using fem

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But great willingness to speak are in attendance. Curiously I think this carries over to online as well, although online has extra dynamic where you can’t have small side convos/whispers. I’m sure there’s been plenty of anthro research on this stuff lol. 1on1s I talked about

Earlier today, 2+ others if strangers I’ll usually let others talk to each other first and wait for invitation? Unless someone else shy too or it feels like I’ll have to say first thing. Sometimes I’ll jump in if I feel very confident or if they’re totally missing the point

(Usually in schooling context). Big groups mostly always silent unless prompted, exceptions are weird idk. Also these are all modified if I know 1 person and I’ll just cling lmao

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Them (very rare person + dependent on my mood) then it’s one of fav configurations. 2 has some unique dynamics but is mostly similar to 3,4,5,6 in that often I can rely on others to carry if I’m not feeling and can jump in when feeling it. Smaller numbers most requires

More engagement, but if mutual engagement is there it’s more fulfilling and less pressure when speaking, but also less diversity of opinion. Usually though that’s a good thing, as long as it’s self curated people. Otherwise if you get stuck with someone without interesting

Things to say it’s brutal. I’m not exactly sure at what point it’s too many people, and probably there’s some variability, but I think it’s prob around when a facilitator is necessary/expedient. Too much pressure when speaking, enough people so that people with nothing to say

Also I’ve been thinking about how my social interaction comfortability varies on how many are there. Like one on one can be pretty weird for me, like there’s too much pressure on me to talk. But if I’m really engaging like philosophically w someone and I’m comfortable with

Feeling great physically after not overeating for a couple days. My hunger cues are all off prob eternally so previously I think I was eating an unhealthy amount until i was basically in pain and could really feel it, which is super shit lol. It’s just frustrating to have to

Keep an eye on things, because that lends me to unhealthy behavior as well.

I genuinely have over 150 tabs open of stuff I’m trying to read like fuuuck it’s so hard to get through, esp when one reading leads me to a bunch of others I’m passionate about. But I love following passion so I wouldn’t have it any other way, just wish I could be more organized