this is related to (or a symptom of) my lacking ability to properly change the subject. i play within the rules of the game provided and have immense difficulty fluidly transitioning from context to context. I remain trapped with my own lack of imagination and lack of courage

Sometimes life is in between keyframes

The crisp night air is so comforting

the screenlife film genre is not ready for tiling window managers

i think i'm kinda lonely but the thought of being around someone rn is repulsive

feel nauseous, i believe this is my body telling me to stop eating the same thing for every meal

screenlife binge rankings so far: searching missing unfriended: dark web unfriended megan is missing the den open windows

i love screenlife films, theyre so bad

Megan is Missing is such a blatantly and objectively bad film that I'm tempted to say it loops back around to being somewhat good in some ways - but I don't think I can.

i think its kinda endearing that a few of the ppl i consistently work w are having more comfy dynamics over time. theyre picking up on my habits, tendencies, and can pick up on my emotional state more easily. i dont mind being open and chill w ppl, and its nice to have the support/understanding

I don’t wanna upgrade my RAM bc my MB is DDR4, so I should get new MB. New MB prolly wont fit nice in current case bc it’s tight pre-build. CPU prolly not compatible w new MB, replace that too. Have to be careful about wattage w new parts, maybe new PSU… mmk nvm I’m not upgrading anything

I HAVE ENERGY

dawg my customer is just reading out his personal credit card number on a call with 20 people for testing purposes 😭 poor guy is gonna get his identity stolen

Maybe I am missing something, but I just haven’t seen a good definition or explanation of the whole ‘internal monologue’ thing.

Sometimes I forget how massive the proportion of 16 year olds is in most online spaces

It’s so funny how 90% of current leftwt discourse is just failed reading comprehension of a single paragraph

Shout out to all my nudes hosted on discord’s servers that are just deep web links accessible to anyone Horny girls have terrible opsec

I’m being tossed under the bus and they don’t even understand what they’re talking about T-T

I wasn’t really paying attention but I wonder how much more lenient my teachers were on me during my 5 doctors visits a week ED phase lol

Kinda miss the days of watching every OWL stream, VOD reviewing, studying games and taking notes. It was cool to have cultivated this really strong game sense and understanding of the flow of the game.

I’d be significantly more attractive if I got more sleep but I refuse to betray my tomoko aesthetic

I am neet lain pissgirl 543 and you can’t stop me

i suck at micro-blogging because it requires strong thesis statements and i'm a non-binary non-monogamous pansexual (can't commit to anything, never made a choice in my life)

my heart hurts and i am NOT kidding :3

i have a cute voice uwu heat from fire, fire from heat uwu

Cute how song lyrics are indexed by mood in my brain. Flare up of same emotion has me referencing tracks from years ago, and then I’m surprised they’re already sorted into the appropriate playlist

boys will tirelessly assert the same conclusion for years and yet be hopelessly engrossed with every new context for the chance to reassert it

It’s likely erroneous pattern recognition or wishful thinking, but I can see the joy fade from her eyes over time. The pictures become less frequent, the smiles become more forced (don’t get me wrong, she knows how to perform pleasure well, but I can tell the difference).

family had a storage issue with photos, i went to help out. found a bunch of pics of her and idk what to say.

I’d be so much happier if I got a CS degree instead of one of my humanities trash ones. Coding is cozy and people are shit. It’s not even like “oh no I’d be sacrificing my passion for a paycheck”. The subject is just infinitely more compelling than reheated progressive liberal drivel, idc abt $.

The ppl in the offices around me probably hate me - I have lil anxiety spasms that result in blurting out obscenities like all the time. How am I supposed to explain that I don’t have Tourette’s I’m just a smol lil guy?

Customer wants to call using Google Meet instead of Zoom or Teams so I’m just a just a cute lil beanie pfp surrounded by professional headshots

I’m so gorgeous and cute ~~~

crying softly in my office haha

I wish I had pretty wrists

i fear my most eventful days are behind me

incredibly fitting result, but unlikely the author had eating disorders in mind during creation lol uquiz.com/quiz/tjZ8p6/...

no one cares you're not insightful you're not interesting you're worthless. have an original thought you pathetic coward. you're nothing, you're limited, shut the fuck up. kill yourself. even your self hate is trite and nauseatingly recycled. jk guys haha

Park is rly good House char

Simmering discomfort, unease. Sharp pain, searing. Dull lethargy, fatigue.

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Has my anxiety gotten better or have I just grown more accustomed to it

Lol it’s sad when I don’t even realize I’m actually having an anxiety attack until someone tries to comfort me

i want to vomit, i should try bulimia for a bit

i love overwatch sometimes

in some ways i wish i had more vocabulary and theoretical background to describe the emotions i feel, but i'm also scared of cultivating that knowledge. if i do have new metaphors available to me, i'm scared that will funnel the experiences i have into a narrow set of categories

one skill i lack is the ability to end a conversation. part of this is definitely midwestern goodbye syndrome. another part is that i don't really get frustrated enough with people to storm out - but even when i used to get angry, i would just keep on arguing