i'm incredibly reticent to write anything down or argue for something that i don't have a thorough background in, and that makes it really difficult to 1) form connection with others 2) learn from community 3) concretize my understanding. I suppose the last one is the problematic double edged sword

fucking up my recently fixed sleep sched just for the lolz

it's actually ruining my enjoyment of the podcast to quibble over myself with the comments, i'm gonna cry

i'm going insane writing a book report in n0's comment section about marx every month, it has to end here

when are the irl devs gonna drop the dark mode texture pack for the sky

early 2000s art fascinates me so much, it feels like it has its own weltanschauung that existed for such a small blip, one that I cherish

i'm actually really really socially inept it's a problem lol

i really wanna re-read Capital and Postone, but i haven't really been in a reading mood for a while :/

i'm starting to think i have a problematic relationship with food :o

I don’t love Answer in Progress’s particular brand of quirk, but at least they try to do the reading. So many “video essayists” will just confidently assert things about entire fields of study they have no familiarity with. Pls god make it stop, or at least be more self-aware and less arrogant.

Also holy shit I worked like 10 hours today even after work all I can think about is work wtf is wrong w me

Today I was saved by the ambiguity of my customer and advisor having the same first name - I’m such an idiot lol

What the fuck does corporate speak even mean? What “deliverables” are implied by a “deep dive”? I’m going to kill you

update about some of the twinks in question: 1) not nearly as cute irl vs online, photos out of date 2) weird laugh (and constantly laughing) 3) talks really loudly all the time, very aggressive 4) eats gross yes i am a professional h8r

modifying css is super comfy, albeit a little bit tedious and fragile in case the site owner changes anything

i need a better intro to comments about my life than "it's funny that...". like, i am genuinely entertained, intrigued, humored by it, but idk if 'funny' really fits, and it's also kinda repetitive. just cold opening and getting directly into description seems wrong tho,

it's funny how different shows/videos have different ideal speeds i settle into. not sure if i can nail down exactly all the factors, but audio balance (specifically dialogue vs. music volume), subtitle reliance, and visual relevance all play a role.

it's actually really nice to go out to restaurants with a friend or friends where they eat and i just get to hang out. i've been able to experience that a fair amount in the past half year and i can think of a few reasons why i appreciate it:

they keep trying to force House into this scientism box when he's so clearly not. Rationality Bros don't have the emotional intelligence to psychoanalyze that well. it's fine most of the time, but there are several moments where it's clear the writers were directly referencing

half of me wishes there was an edit button on this site, and the other half of me is grateful there isn't because i would spend hours lingering on posts editing them to get precise wording (which is never precise enough)

i need a better word for anthropologically cute

When my officemate isn’t traveling, I just book 5 different conference rooms throughout the day and bounce between them. It’s a really bad solution but idk what else to do

uwu

Percussion autists are the most maligned and oppressed group

Lol I hate sharing space with other people, I have a bunch of tics and habits that make others uncomfy or annoyed. You don’t want me around, I don’t want to be around you, pls stop making me be here

the weather is so gloomy and dismal today :3

Stop sexualizing the cute twink coworkers that are smarter than you and have pretty hair and nice eyes and strong arms that could pin me down and strong voices that make my knees weak challenge

i miss old grav radius, idc if it was op

One subset of persistent things I picked up from my 4.5y gf (before she dumped me) was a bunch of good hygiene habits, which makes me wonder how I landed her in the first place lol. ig low expectations for high school boys, but yeesh

Today is the first day I’ve left work after 5pm since starting 4 months ago - let’s hope this doesn’t become a habit For legal reasons this post is fanfic I’m writing from the pov of a greedy prole taking advantage of her poor multi-billion dollar employing company’s good graces (very sad)

Also gameplay feels less reliant on explicit design choices (reworked villager trading round 462) and more oriented around emergent properties of the base mechanics

Lol well okay cool ig

it always puts me in a shit mood - pragmatically its annoying, culturally its disappointing, technologically its myopic, philosophically its incoherent, and politically its depressing. personally, frankly, its frightening. a staggering amount of my personal history there, and no discretionary power.

youtube moderation is hitlerite when it comes to external links im gonna kms

I can’t believe I have work tomorrow That statement is partially a figure of speech but also partially genuinely reflective of the pattern my brain gets into when isolated and degen-ing for a weekend. Reminds it of no homework holiday breaks.

i'm not sure if i should be more surprised about the relative share of development attention that strongholds received a dozen years ago or the fact that they haven't been significantly touched since then.

minus a few QoL improvements, 1.0.0 is superior in basically every way to modern minecraft. the atmosphere, the cave generation, the pace of progression. rather than being a checklist to end game and a dash between structures, the shortcut-less empty world is a true sandbox.

russian is such a goofy language /pos

I like my relationships how I like my politics: all theory, no practice

Given how infrequently I voluntarily interact with others, I spend an inordinate amount of time contemplating their significance

I only use shampoo like once a month and my hair is still really dry. Directly applying something like argon oil is too greasy tho. Maybe I need to take shorter/colder showers?

Guy who struggles to make it through a single anime cour over the course of multiple weeks but then rewatches 3 seasons of House in an afternoon (me)

my rejection of legibly cognizable relationships can be a crutch that enables cowardice and passivity. despite my ability to be straightforward in other areas, asserting myself and thereby risking imposition and non-reciprocation makes me fearful and meek.

‘Sideloading’ apps has been the greatest improvement to the usage of my Apple products, but how painful they make it is wild. Hopefully I’ll switch to android next chance I get, but I don’t anticipate that being for a while. Refreshing my 2 allowed apps once a week until then lol.

oliSUNvia is so fun to hate watch and get triggered by. it's interesting sociologically to see what type of pop philosophy is in vogue and to see her adapting academic materials to her generation's context, but philosophically its just frustratingly poor lol.

hasan x h3 is so funny bc its just larping socdem vs honest socdem. i hate zoomer bernie brocialism lmfao

It’s very funny how I’ll hate the feeling of having a body and feel disgusting all the time, and then I’ll look in the mirror and be like “oh, cute!” Because of the former I’m quite disinclined to actually do the latter by anything other than accident.

I deeply dislike the feeling of food in my stomach. It’s such a relief when I’m empty.

I bounce between states of being so frequently that “episode” feels more appropriate than “arc” or “season”. I’m don’t think I’m enjoying the current episode very much.