not having fun

i wanna restrict again

i need to stop watching zoomer progressive video essays they just annoy me

I love realizing several hours later that I completely fumbled an interaction

kinda embarrassing being unintelligent

how am I so bad at words

⚠️this poster is a part of the labor aristocracy⚠️

Walked across campus twice today - the bitter cold and damp earth version of the trek was infinitely preferable to the labyrinth of internal bridges and tunnels

officemate w pretty long hair and highlights makes me doki doki

Lain is not about “a digital identity that *seems* more real” or about “*feeling* that your identity is [anything, much less constructed with intention by an outside agent]”. It’s an ontological analysis of identity as such. You missed the point.

onto my 5th YT playlist for music on my backlog, suuurely someday i'll get around to all 20k

my poor lil Surface processor always melts w video playback,, prolly doesn't help that i'm always 3x+

lol why did I think this was a good idea we have nothing in common

*i* think i'm so playful and funny, but i have to keep reminding myself to everyone else i come across as a dry asshole

i love fansubs

Why am I vpning in to do work at 8pm on a Thursday

wish mint had better touchpad gestures

Yoo I should rewatch bakugan anime

still not accustomed to dollposting meta here

bass players 🤤

Rain

customer has tgirl swag inflection, love her

gah the cringe it hurts

2020 -> 2023 lol

wish I could get back into reading, but I don’t even have the energy to leave my bed after getting home from work nowadays

kinda wild that class reductionism nonsense can still be so popular in so many circles. Ig single axis of analysis makes everything nice and tidy, also makes you a moron

give it a few more days I’ll be back to being more rested

Jordan seems really cool and I love when he joins Oli in screaming, and compositionally he seems very competent… but I really dislike the direction BMTH has gone with him and I miss the vibe w Jona so much. Obv its a lil unclear how much can be attributed to Jordan, since their sound was always

too many damn light switches in my apt

My linguistic and conceptual repertoire is painfully limited. All felt and thought by humans > things codified into language > words reasonably available to contemporary me (not lost to time/location/region locked) > exclusive English fluency > words I’ve been exposed to > vocabulary I maintain

I fall in love - not just romantically, but in all domains - quickly* and deeply, and without much commitment or consistency. This is a characteristically young person’s way of approaching the world, and I wonder if it will change over time.

Much to my dismay, I enjoy many aspects of my job

This actually makes me a bit sad. I remember watching recordings of older bmth shows where Ollie would goad the audience to come touch him, and security would try and fail to keep the horde at bay. Here he kinda just wanders around and high fives some ppl.

I slept less than 3 hours last night, and I feel something less and more than tired rn. I already napped and my eyes feel shadow pain behind and underneath them, like it’s in my bones. I don’t even know how to describe the feeling I’m having. It’s not tiredness or fatigue, it just feels really bad.🤕

yeowch neck hurty

Good luck bonding over mutual interests with someone whose passions are so transient, whose fixation is so overbearing, whose engagement with community oscillates from exclusively observational to outright rejection with no in between.

No one has better music taste than my past self - who else could have such bangers just waiting to be shuffled through?

Critical support for the C-suite exec posting “This looks good. A lot of great information.” in the chat while the call is reviewing the work I did that he absolutely does not understand lmao

still can’t believe my employer has gotten away with posting orientalism on main for like a decade, like people have to show up to that building every day man

Attempting to explain Halimede to the uninitiated is more difficult than I thought it would be lol

It’s reasonable to have concerns about what they’re called, but I actually think gynephilia and androphilia as concepts are very helpful because they dissociate the user’s gender identity from who they’re sexually attracted to

the early 2010s was such a lovely time for earnestly cringe angsty melodramatic emo music

Ling tosite sigure is fucking incredible. compositionally mind blowing, vocals dripping with emotion, guitars spark with energy; everything is spectacular - but the thing i can't stop thinking about is how they've made me realize how criminally under-utilized and under-appreciated the hi-hat is.

i was never really bothered by it, but it's kinda nice to have an apartment where I don't have to hear my neighbors, traffic, or a frat party down the street lol

I know it shouldn’t be surprising, but it still is a little shocking to see the extent to which “commentary influencers” are just baldly agents of social reproduction

Screenlife weekend is over, here's the result (i was fairly generous with grading)