ok so shockingly, excel doesn’t play nice with 58 million lines

i have an officemate who’s on a call

LOL this is the most cursed replacement for waow chat

KASEY I HAVE A MEETING IN 4 MINS

ok i have to drop ily kasey ily juli ily char ily goeo ily anna

haha i’m at work and i need to copy it into an excel table so..

it’s a custom toolkit template lol this is not gonna automate easy mr goeo

about to open a 20gb txt file wish me luck

it’s so awesome how the most hype generated for accessibility features is to use them in ways hostile to accessibility

my favorite part was when she’s like “oh yeah and just go in there and delete the auto-generated captions” like do you hear yourself 😭

my friends are so smart and cool and pretty

@david (this time)

last night i had the idea to continually add tallies to this thread as i felt impressed by my friends, but then i realized that happens way too frequently to make any sense like i would have added d and h tallies already even though it was sleeping and they didn’t even do anything concrete :3

yes very much so. ofc i think this, ofc it’s contextual, as you say above, and as my fav author never ceases to harp on too. idk i think maybe you misunderstand me or what i am doing when i type things like the above

this diary thread was not the final word on my past actions. it was one moment of reflection, one contributing voice to a chorus of other perspectives. the reason this one was written down is that i felt the need to develop it in a particular way that required sustained reflection.

i have the other perspectives in relatively clear view, and i think about them often. i don’t just want to change or escape the past. im not running away from myself. i’m not motivated by fear or disgust of an old me.

but i also don’t think the only change i have in my sights is killing off the critical parts, so that only self-affirmation remains. so you’re right on that front that we aren’t the same. most of the time i don’t have specific goals or even think in terms of “improvement” or whatever.

i have fun wearing a lot of different masks, and it feels like you sometimes latch onto one of the masks speaking and interpret that as binding truth. but idk at the end of the day it doesn’t really matter. it’s fine if you don’t want to meet or don’t want to talk.

i’m kind of tired of saying “it’s just a misunderstanding”, but it’s hard when you’re saying thing i don’t disagree with and phrasing them as reasons for leaving.

and again this thread was from 2021, and my perspective may have shifted in lots of ways since then. i would definitely write something different now, and ofc that’s the point - i was writing to myself to help me deal with the situation. the function here is pragmatic, not metaphysical evaluation.

it’s fun to be an asshole, but it’s only fun if it’s fun. sometimes it’s not fun, and sometimes the most livening approach is to try out other masks. turning away is of course a fine option as well, but sometimes that’s just a waste.

yea ur removed now

nice

quoisexual flag moment kasey

yeag

disabling haptics still keeps the buzz when refreshing feeds

like riding all the bloomfs - like a bike get it

nuh uhhhh requesting access to ur apartment to glomp u

nuh uh ! i was just hanging with the boys !

thank uuuu ily meow srry

if any of my gfs need me, ask kasey for my signal lmao

oh wait i forgot bluesky has dms that’s way easier

yea, tho i actually think i might just take the night off until the limitation lifts on main

oops

smh

on discord yes actually ! have you gotten slapped before for something :o

they did notice the any/all in bio at least lol

LOL yea

you’re welcome for saving you

upon reflection shreyan may have had a point

it’s true! the boys were talking about it

not even a little as a treat 🥺

perhaps i should have seen that coming

cya on my alt for a bit

“Yeah sure Ellen, I will submit feedback to R&D that you should be able to upcharge people with our discount functionality” KILL ME

AMERICAN HEALTHCARE MOMENT

i just need to continue thinking less, or cultivate the conditions necessary to allow this to happen

me too :c or at least i desire to miss her

old willow seeping through a bit too much unfortunately

it’s an old jacket (9+ years?), all black, a bit too puffy and a bit too large