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“deservingness” is a property that has always confused me, but for you the application comes naturally. you deserve happiness, you deserve love, you deserve effort. and you don’t need my judgement to know that.

you’re the strongest, most admirable person i’ve ever known, and endlessly i’m grateful for the time and care you selflessly gave me, far beyond what i deserved.

i want to say something like “i wish you had spent it on someone more worthwhile” but that isn’t true. i’m glad it was me. and i also can’t say “i wish i had acted differently” because i’m convinced i never had the potential to be what you needed. i just wish my benefit didn’t come at your expense.

we knew from the start i wasn’t really the right fit for you, and both kinda hoped i’d grow into it some day. that never happened. losing you helped a bit, but i’m still not in a place where i could truly fulfill you.

which is fine, of course. i’m well beyond the point in my life where i would consider amorous connections as a life purpose, at least not in the naive sense.

i stole years of your life. i don’t want forgiveness, i want you to forget me and be as happy as you can without the anchor around your neck.

it’s telling that i have more pictures of you with my brother than me in the last couple years of our relationship. i wasn’t meant for you, and i didn’t put a modicum of effort into us. i’m sorry for the heartbreak and frustration, i wasn’t worth it.

day 516 of shilling for uYouPlus

important things going on in my heavily used spotify account

@renahlee.com how does it feel to have the best playlist since music that pops your balls megamix

one time i put together a piano arrangement of “Tear In My Heart” and performed it for her as a surprise

i cried in her arms because i was so anxious

she was there for all of the overwhelmingly turbulent emotions of my youth

in retrospect the arranging was infinitely more meaningful and significant to me, as a way to focus and direct my affections into a creation the performance was a distortion of this passion to an extent the whole experience is indicative of my rather odd way of relating to people

i’m glad i’m no longer in her life, i’m just sad she’s no longer in mine

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a group of people are looking at a projector screen that says literally 1984

ALT: a group of people are looking at a projector screen that says literally 1984

i can’t stop crying

it hurts so much

never again will i experience the sublimity of neglecting my partner during a pandemic lockdown

willowAug 16, 2024

i miss gail

i would like for my body to be disposed of in the least sentimental and most environmentally conscious method possible

it’s weird bc a large amount of my direct casual interactions with people are just veiled in thick layers of irony my alternative mode is just being sad ig

nice try playing hard to get by friendzoning yourself it’s too late you’re mine already, you won’t get away that easy >:3

it’s clear i don’t believe any of the things i say i appreciate people humoring me, its helpful to have an intellectually stimulating task even if the result is rather dull temporary distraction from depression is just about the only thing that works anyway (its an open question whether that’s good)

that goes without saying, only a he/him would have that take

tldr thanks jules luv ya srry for being pesky lil bother

nice try playing hard to get by friendzoning yourself it’s too late you’re mine already, you won’t get away that easy >:3

you prey on vulnerable younger women with low self esteem? not cool jules :/

she’s mid tbh

idk if you’d like this but it reminded me of

youtu.be

Cooks But We're Chefs - Kodama

YouTube video by willow

that was my interpretation lol

that goes without saying, only a he/him would have that take

this mirrors kasey x willow dynamic

relegate he/him to the meme labeler

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im low on gas and you need a jacket

im low on gas and you need a jacket pierce the veil cover :)

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Bliss (dethtech

this song sucks if you disagree go freakin kick rocks! this is a cover of @dethtech

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i caught the smell of smoke and i kept on singing you to sleep

trinket & tether best friend

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Link Cable

2 AM another night kept awake by fluorescent lights my slow decay broadcasted live through snapshots of a cold and empty life basking in the RGB while snowfall coats late Autumn Leaves find my way ou