“RTFM” mfs when the documentation is two toothpicks duct-taped together (a link to a 2 page Word doc personal diary of the developer written in 2012)

i hate my stupid chungus life

if i’m being honest it was all luck and circumstance so i likely won’t be much help. i’m a humanities major with average technical ability that lived in the area. my employer explicitly hires inexperienced new grads with so they can mold them. they just also have a quasi-monopoly and can afford it.

i got rejected from everywhere else i applied, including like tier 1 tech support, random project management, and office assistant jobs. if i didn’t get picked up here i would probably be making like 30k at wherever would pick me up. i’m a nepo-baby so my dad probably would have hired me.

my running backup plan was to move back into my parents basement, get hired at my dads place at essentially nothing just to put something on my resume, maybe go to technical college or get certifications or something. was pretty bleak for a while.

yeah it has horrid retention rate for a reason. the place blows and most people can’t stomach it for more than a year or so

it’s even more crazy bc kasey makes 10k more than me

open a patreon (or liberapay or whatever you gentoo users use) and we will redistribute the blood money i have acquired to the socially optimal agent for our relative marginal utilities

it’s completely unnecessary i don’t have the lifestyle to require it at all

you’re my 10x dev tho how is that fair

yea it’s ridic labor theory of value btfo, my ass is not worth it

labor aristocracy

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please put my life through 1.2x nightcoremaker\.com

BORN TO EAT BREAD bread is a cool Eat them all 1999 l am cute boy

fatalfatalfatal

i’ll hold your hands until the end

I’m I’m Sorry Sorry We fell out of love for the same reasons we fell in And I know what we had is gone for good, but you can't blame me for trying Before our bitterness set in, when you used to be my cure You grew jaded, and your love faded And I'm still waiting for conversation

forU ╥﹏╥♡

ur tugging @ my <3strings

cant remember how to say your name let alone count all the freckles on your face a distant memory i used to know i guess that's just the way things go i guess that's just the way things go passed your house when i was on a train last few years had never felt the same i'm happy

now i think you ought to know i guess that's just the way things go i guess that's just the way things go i wondered if you felt the same i guess at least we tried i thought we were gonna last forever had that in mind

i know it's far from the ordinary i just like to live a lie but i really hope you live a happy life can't remember when you said you called miles away and it was still my fault the love you said you had, it never showed i guess that's just the way things go i guess that's just the way things go

a heaven 520 h ello

i’m regressing rly hard rn

i’m sorry

i feel so ill

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i’m getting whiplash from kasey’s first day (and the memory of my own) massive W for you

srry i’m not that cool

the quote chain goes back to a now-deleted post of someone doing some normie “what lyrics are you feeling rn”-esque prompt thing and i’ve just kept it going ig

it’s usually less about the lyrics themselves and more about me just using the screenshot as a signifier for the music it’s a constituent element of being significant to me at that moment

i’ve imprinted on her

yea this is exactly what i did too lmao

self harm

stay away from my disasterology action cat 1 2 1 3 1 1 1 1 1 1 3 1 1 1 2 1 1 1 1 2 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 2 1 1 1 1 3 2 1 1

2:41 / 3:20 n / A

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perpetually falling

gravitational collapse is my utopian aspiration

a close friend of mine got involved with the wrong crowd and i’m worried about them

i’m like really on edge and scared and sad rn

i know it’s mundane, that’s why it’s horrific

attending a division meeting and i’m convinced the recording could be presented without revision or comment to non-Americans as effective propaganda to why the US should be burned down

bringing a real heideggerian vibe to the relationship but then realizing you were arendt all along

that's compatible with saying that nonetheless i am the person i am and have the desires i do, and behaving in accordance with them. but yea idk i'm just tired and i'm sad about who i am and the historical context i find myself in. i think it'd be interesting to be more spontaneous and inquisitive

it's really funny because if i specified what spurred this reflection and what discrete activities i had in mind, everyone who knows me would find it absurd and laughable, but obviously i just take that to be grist for my mill on this point