the busyness of my life can be quantified by the length of my watch later playlist on youtube

goes to sleep at 3am gf x wakes at 3am bf

gets back into bed bf x what the fuck why does she have three 7am alarms she doesn’t even wake up what’s the point other than to spite me gf

in love and cuddlecore ( ⁀‿⁀ ) i feel so peaceful and secure

i’m boysneezing 😵‍💫

it makes sense lol, i dragged the histamines with me today (cat hair is stuck all over me)

training servers are down so i’m raw dogging prd to practice :3

feeling a lot better <3

volatile and impulsive, but then calm like the rain

omg real

my name no longer feels like my own. which is based kinda, i never really liked it. but when i get called it all the time it feels wrong and uncomfy

i’m just really sensitive right now, and every little pinprick feels excruciating.

i need to stop being emotionally reflective, it just makes it worse

i feel like vomiting and sobbing and screaming but i’m just paralyzed

i hate my body i hate my face i hate i hate i hate i hate

on second thought this whole public diary meltdown thing is probably ill advised now that i actually have a few followers

i’ve done that more times than i’d care to admit when trying to record something

oh yeah lmao this thread spiraled far from my name, just felt better to keep doomer posting quarantined

i’m really stressed and i feel stupid :(

how often do you fail reading comprehension and embarrass yourself?

it’s actually like really humiliating to imagine anyone reading or listening to anything i have ever said just let me go back to being an anonymous observer neet online with no friends reeee

emulator devs doing gods work out here fr and in addition to technical challenges there are also legal and political battles too :c all my homies hate nintendo

also btw i hope i didn’t come across as too abrasive at any point - i really enjoyed talking with you :>

honestly it’s such a tragic question, because in some sense i don’t think there’s any true way to preserve anything. the conditions of observation are constantly changing, and often the art object itself is in flux at all times

this is more pronounced with physical art like paintings where you have to be incredibly intentional with elongating their life span, but i think it also applies to digital art as well

while it’s trivially true that even a copied file will not be truly “identical” (takes up a different space on a hard drive), that’s not terribly aesthetically relevant

but the context of the interpreter are always changing, and impossible to recreate. so preservation is a bit of a misnomer maybe, but approximation of a shared experience still carries great significance even if it can’t be perfect

and in some ways, i’m not sure i would want it to be perfect. the inability to replicate demands greater significance for each encounter. and the dissonance from prior experiences when revisiting a work is its own generative ground

ooh good thought experiment i think this brings out the difference. i suppose im very keen to diminish the role of a discrete ontological specification of an “art” object as such, and more keen on emphasizing the role of aesthetic interpretation and appreciation

so i agree it does sound rather odd to call a collection of clouds “art”, but if they’re playing the same role that other art objects do, i don’t care too much about whether it counts as art or not

i’m also extremely keen on diminishing the role of intentionality, both on the side of the artist and the interpreter. these can be of subsidiary sociological/anthropological interest, but don’t seem directly aesthetically relevant to me

or rather, they can be relevant if that influences an observers interpretation, but that isn’t a necessary condition

and yes i very much agree, labeling generative models as artistic is very silly lol, and i wouldn’t care to do this since i don’t really see the value in focusing on creators anyway.

that being said, im open to the possibility that an automated ai (no person selecting outcomes) could still produce objects capable of aesthetic appreciation - which colloquially seems to approximate what “art” means to people, but i don’t extremely care about the definition if that isn’t conflated

i mean we definitely agree on the conclusion of what action (not) to take, i just think we arrive there from very different starting places that lead to divergences elsewhere.

for example with ai art: so what if it doesn’t interpret anything colored by life experience? if a message is still received, then who cares if it didn’t intentionally communicate anything?

and even then it’s not clear that nothing is being communicated. cringey loser prompt engineers are still communicating something through the medium of ai art

haha thanks 😅 honestly i just started doing it for myself and somehow i spammed enough to get traction. in a lot of ways i'd prefer less attention to avoid copyright/community guidelines violations lol between scdl, bandcamp-dl, and songs-to-youtube on github its actually super simple!

most artists are actually incredibly appreciative, i get added on discord all the time with ppl thanking me and its really cozy. i don't interact too much with the "breakcore community" or whatever so its cozy. very occasionally ppl get angry with me but it's probably happened around 5 times total

this makes it sound like less of a headache than it is lol, i do get copyright takedowns and soundcloud dms and youtube comments every so often with irate people but shrug its not so bad

i do really love seeing the general youtube comments tho, adorable and wholesome lil guys

sorry for more ramble but another thing on talking w artists: one time a producer reached out thanking me for archiving because they deleted all their socials during a manic episode and my uploads were the only surviving copies, which i thought was sweet

oh no i just have a repost/archive channel where i reupload things i like from soundcloud/bandcamp/etc

i have really loved what i’ve heard so far, tysm (also side note wtf this discography is massive)

oooh who is it send pls