shout out to all my homies still remixing and sampling the chobits op, i love yinz

literally schizo

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i'm just trying to listen to waqs man

i'm not sure if it would be more sad if this was just ineffectual virtue signalling of if there are actually people that would find this in any way helpful

me finding a new music genre: omg its so kewl! so much music all in the same style, how convenient :) me after getting familiar with a genre: i hate genres i hate categories i hate conception abolish language i am the antichrist

it’s fun when my narcissism is stronger than my dys(phor/morph)ia phenomenologically repulsive, corporeally elegant

it feels great to solve an issue you’ve been working on for a week and realize the only thing you’ve accomplished is to strengthen the enforcement arm of capital 🙂

i don’t care if your worker productivity report doesn’t work!!!! let them be lazy

in some ways it’s interesting since it goes to show that the proletariat is not homogeneous and that our immediate interests run contrary to one another. this is where the concept of solidarity can emerge as significant.

not that that has any reasonable chance of happening here - but conceptually those are the preconditions

the gulf between social interaction that drains me, saps me of life, requires subsequent recovery and that which invigorates, fulfills, injects with vitality, and feels like home is vast and palpable. it’s not merely a matter of enjoyment, it feels a qualitatively distinct mode of experience.

i’m not sure how fleeting this will be, but i’m going to cherish it while it’s around. the latter mode is so rare for me that i frequently distrust its possibility; i’m glad to be proven mistaken.

and it’s certainly possible retrospectively i’ll view this as naive, that it was draining me in some way, and i was just ignoring it because of the adrenaline rush. i’ll keep an eye on things, and should emphasize that i’m aware this isn’t a replacement for the immense value i find in being alone.

“Here and there on earth there is probably a kind of continuation of love in which this greedy desire of two people for each other gives way to a new desire and greed, a shared higher thirst for an ideal above them. But who knows such love? Who has experienced it? Its true name is friendship.”

to be more explicit about this point: i can be exhausted by something i enjoy and fulfilled by something that makes me feel miserable in the moment. it’s an independent variable.

this is an odd thing to say given my recent behaviors, but i think i'm actually at the mentally healthiest i've been in a long long time

excel makes me want to never use a computer again

you can always start with baby steps and add more later :)

girls will really download github projects, struggle with wine prefixes, give up and switch operating systems, transfer files to hard drives with mutually compatible file formats, and create their own cover art before checking the description to see if an instrumental version already exists

this isn't about me it's just a general trend i've noticed among women

online is p alright bc i can just log off or switch activities; my engagement is pretty voluntary and the masks are ones i’ve at least been interested in generating at some point. this was mostly targeted at a work context

anguish and heartbreak, these are really weird emotions to be having for this context

it’s incredibly stressful, disorienting, scary to rapidly shift between radically different identity masks, especially when this one has thorns inside and i’m coerced into putting it on

surprise: it was a secret third thing

post-feuerbachean marxist account of how going on going on SS forums and reading people's detailed plans make me feel less suicidal as a compensatory fantasy, but that the desire will persist until the material cause of suffering is alleviated.

nietzschean analysis of how i start as weak and suffering and am given a project that occupies me and distracts from pain in the short term, namely turning aggression against myself. but by turning my aggression against myself, i am now more weak and debilitated, and the descending spiral continues.

in any case, i am clearly not taking anyone out of context and my suicidal ideation is just like christianity

truuuu goats is never coming back theres no point tho i do kinda feel bad when i'm ringing for tourneys and inting my brains out

my main goal is to blow up

it's actually shocking how rapidly my skill has atrophied at this game lol

i think i'm so clever/angsty when i'm vagueposting - no ur just a moron that doesn't source anything soundcloud.com/assclaps/oh-...

every time someone comes over to my place i need to screw my lightbulbs back in so they can “see in front of themselves” and “not run into things”. whats up with that?

ah yeh i see, i hope you can figure out something tolerable

i’m a wagie rn and all my favorite people (you among them now) are neets. if you can survive there’s nothing to be ashamed of imo. is there something you’d specifically like to do?

that made my heart smile and i audibly let out an “awww”. rly rly like that approach

i’ve done that a few times and it’s personally always been incredibly positive for me, but i’m more introverty so mileage may vary. it can be hard to tell the difference between relapse and requiring companionship, so if you do that just make sure to take care of yourself and don’t push too hard

yeah i mean that’s rly rly good. i’ve been too cowardly to crack my egg for years at this point so im glad you were able to. but i can defi understand the frustration of feeling stagnated elsewhere

relate so hard. at one point i had to detox by deleting all the apps and blocking the domains on my pc. my twitter looked like this for a while when i exclusively used it to message friends

totally get that, it’s really easy to slip from social media being parasitic on your interests to replacing them entirely

hm for false proximity, is it like relationships feel fake or unfulfilling? but yeah social media kinda inherently leads to attention bait even if you try to resist - gotta post normie repellant every so often just to keep yourself in check

:( fwiw i’ve really enjoyed interacting with you the past lil bit, any reason why?

everything okay?

i love doing my budget spreadsheet every month. what can i say, im just a techno-pilled swabian housewife =v=

playing with data is just so fun! and conditional formatting!

sending hugs :( i hope you can freely express your abundant love soon

i have acquired a smart tv and it makes me wanna die

i'm a lot more anxious posting now that i'm amassing cute bloomfies

delusional girls with anxiety disorders

ty! according to danbooru the character is from demon slayer but i have never read/watched so who knows