geuss has a good chapter in reality and its dreams that fleshes it out (cont.)

but yea even for his purposes it’s ideal typic, and ofc not everyone using the term has his conception

no tree today…

no alt text hint for the boys 🥺

if u give me an rkey without a did i riot

ikr her eyes just scream “i can’t believe you went hawaii on idaho, you’re even worse at this than connections”

i’m bleeding followers and i didn’t even have to resort to this 💪

nothing will make you feel this way (uncharitably: realize this) as much as starting a new job, it’s ass

i originally made this post because someone came and knocked on my door to ask me to stop tapping so much

pinakes fixes this (transparently i haven’t searched with it once)

i’ve been saying

did:tboy

kasey and i regularly just say it out loud back and forth to one another as a stim

wow apple speech recognition sucks

i oscillate too but im here again (and chill abt it instead of agitated)

freaking kasey dox

ngl i really fumbled the last one and im never clear about my purpose with such things (even to myself, which causes me to flounder when challenged). had a long talk with kasey about it and we kinda settled on "actually this was a call-out post for your affluent followers in disguise"

like yea i'm a part of it but that's not really the primary purpose, it's more like performative over the top self-flagellation with the intention to remind people that this shit is not benign or innocuous, it doesn't come from nowhere, one ought reflect on it's sources, integration, usage, etc etc.

lowkey i also just hate the obscurity and pretending everyone has about this stuff too. everyone presents themselves as something they are not and the only real way to verify is to be obnoxiously transparent. but it either comes off as genuinely guilt-ridden or humble bragging.

it's a flawed strat, i don't think i'm gonna do it anymore. it causes a lot of interpersonal issues and it's blunt and ugly so i'm backing down. i think it was more rhetorically effective when i was making 70k, because techies were making more than me and i could be like "even with this its opulent"

i'm kinda done trying to spread or share what i think. for one i'm not as sharp as before. it also just doesn't matter. i sorta just have an accumulation of blurry dispositions and reactions, and im grateful for those, but at this point i'm inarticulate and don't have any fight in me.

i don't care about anything other than my friends and it sucks to see them hurt all the time and no one pays it any mind. we're all so much more damaged than we realize and everyone is just trying to protect themselves and maintain their pride instead.

yes affirmation and yay-saying are good, but when it's purpose is cowardly ego defense or ignorant pride it's just weakness. i'm weak too and i don't know what to do and i can't fix the world. so i guess i'll acknowledge myself privately, place my focus elsewhere, and make the most of what i have.

trans suicide statistics when kasey joins vc:

i dont trust you, you'll delete all the songs just like them

i suppose thats one way to remake it

i haven’t tried pdsmoover.com but that’s the new kid on the block

less deadnaming than any alternative at this point, plus you’ve earned the right

i gotta do the respectful thing and pick something to stop making everyone think about it

one more via field…

like the rest in that the era it denotes is transitory and will also be surpassed eventually, unlike the rest in that i'm not really sold on the name and am actively looking for something better

how about an alt to gush over all the people you like on social media

maniac -> mellow -> dreary -> proto-willow -> dreary -> willow ->

wren is a placeholder until i figure out what comes next

hopefully not a did:plc typa placeholder

ironic, given how many fractures i ended up causing with an identity that only temporarily existed

all the more impressive to those that made it through the variations, or adapted thereafter

weird mood, not even sad bsky.app/profile/did:...

monday i suppose

listening to music i don’t like: symptom or cause? bsky.app/profile/did:...

re-reading this today, this was rude and i'm sorry. i stand by being deep (and intelligent). but there were probably more constructive ways to express that brilliance. it's also true i'm superficial and won't fix it in myself

yippee thats what i was hoping to hear, ezpz

i don't know what this entails but sign me up

:) yay

can confirm

for the record i just liked the alliteration i dont actually think of myself as one

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