I think it would be different if they were classical socdems that just used reform through liberal institutions as praxis, at least thats a perspective with some theory, even if I have some misgivings about the understanding of power.
im not trying to be ideologically pure or anything ig its just frustrating bc this type of person adopts radical language but really just has pretty solid politics within the modern overton window - which is good - just so weird to see
youre not "radicalized" stfu youre a bernie bro. the lack of theory totally ruins your perspective and instead of seeking to be better you just accept or even praise yourself for it. idk yikes homie
yeah giving people resources to look into things good but just entirely ideologically inconsistent and its like the most cringe thing idk. def feel the anarchist annoyance with "leftism" bc like what the fuck is that. you literally recommended an ML and an anarchist within 10s
Faking runs? Bad, Seems like this isn’t the only one either
Weird problematic relationship with women? Yeah seems that way too
But he doesn’t seem like actually a danger to anyone, and the other allegations of interpersonal misconduct seem unbelievably minor or like non issue
But the worst part is like the constant dunking and “down bad lmao” like idk just feels really weird and gross, and like the whole jumping to cancel thing. If it was just focused on fake runs then yeah prob not good to have him in that community anymore, but idk how long too idk
Just feels like when someone does something wrong it’s fine to just say fuck it 100% bad person and im justified in any treatment. Have empathy w ppl that make mistakes :/
Like it’s “my space” by property rights are kinda bs and maybe (?) could be like personal property space but even then it’s like there’s no way to communicate or put on notice so that seems kinda bs too, also like humans building on land previously inhabited by animals
And then it’s like ok well they’re infringing on my bodily autonomy but it’s like are they? Even if I can say it’s likely does that make it legitimate to do so pre-emptively? And me saying likely is based on species which idk. Like I think it might all just be cope and that im
To continue story, I kill one and it was awful experience, BUT THEN MORE CAME. Like one by one throughout the day there kept being more and more like holy shit how fucking awful. I killed 7 in all I think, and it was terrible every time. Pls just leave alone, I don’t want to hurt
Dude today has been like low key traumatic. It’s been move in week for ppl so they set up a big dumpster outside for trash and it has a bunch of flies, and somehow they’re getting in my apartment. It freaks me out so much having them around, and killing them is dubious ethical
Philosophy of relationships has always been incredibly important to me and my understanding of how I connect with others. Drifting between various understandings during adolescence drastically altered how I interacted with others. Often this wasn't exactly conscious choice by me
and that just made it all the more confusing for those around me. Especially with those I had long term relationships with, namely Gail. It has taken a long time but I think relationship anarchy has given me a framework to understand social relationships in a compelling and
beautiful way. Elegant in its simplicity, but difficult to follow through on given the state of current society. Modern understandings are contradictory and often immoral if followed to their conclusions.
It feels like that implies that capitulation is necessary, like trying to cover up or eat less or whatever, but honestly that will never work. There will always be something, and it will never be good enough. And all of these standards are bullshit anyway, informed by garbage
World views. I can often shake out of it, like the requirement for men to be muscular or whatever, but some random things just have really caught me and dug in, namely weight appearance stuff. Idk sucks
Flat and less noticeable. I don’t really ever think about it until it’s pointed out, and then I feel pretty embarrassed and humiliated for some reason. Like “I was foolish for thinking something this ugly would go unnoticed, and that I was foolish for acting like it was
Irrelevant when it clearly matters” but that’s stupid and obv not true. Idk just is weird that I’m at a point in life where everyone pretends not to notice and doesn’t say anything, but it’s basically the first thing people see and I imagine I get judged prematurely for it
Constantly. Kinda just frustrating ig. Body image in general just really odd for me, like I don’t care at all because it doesn’t impact the things I most care about, but there are undeniable standards that make life confusing and difficult.
Getting cosmetic surgery for my neck tomorrow. I really hope it helps. I honestly don’t mind too much intrinsically, but others treat me a little weird for it I think. It was fading for a bit but more recently it’s become larger and more red. It would be nice to have it
let him but understand that all the foolish things the world teaches him to consider as indispensable are but useless trash, and he will not work beyond his strength; he will not have to endure suffering and constant care; he will not have to labor without purpose or rest;
He will not be deprived of communion with nature, or of the work he loves, or of his family or his health, and he will not die a uselessly painful death.
Were a man but to act as he finds best for himself, were he but to refuse to go to war, he would have to dig ditches; but he would not be tortured in Sebastopool or Plevna. Let a man not believe that it is indispensable to wear a watch chain and to have useless drawing rooms,
some ‘hot water characteristics’. It’s terminological trickery: the internal structure of the thing remains the same, and insisting that it be called something else because it’s in contact with something else (without changing its internal structure) does nothing to change either
the fact of its internal structure or what we can expect to result from it. The results of spilling 100-degree Celsius water on yourself will be the same whether you say it’s ‘hot water’ or ‘cold water with hot water characteristics’.
It might be argued that the existing, hierarchical state, if and when it has been seized by a ‘true’ socialist party and has successfully transitioned from capitalism to an early stage of socialism, will lose its capitalist character. Even if such a state retains some
hierarchical ‘capitalist characteristics’, it will now be a properly democratic workers’ state, which can be relied upon to carry out universal emancipation. This argument is a bit like saying that boiling water, once moved from a pot to a glass, is now really cold water with
"helping others process emotional stress" - an patriarchal expectation I don't think I've examined thoroughly enough in my own actions and behavior. I think in large part I took advantage of this expectation in my relationship with Gail and didn't give her the space, room, and
ability to comfortably refuse to constantly perform this work for me. Obviously it was appreciated and very important to me, but that doesn't make it any less coercive or problematic. I also don't think I did a very good job of reciprocating this work. I'll think more about.