the yay-saying negativist

yea yea

(sidney morgenbesser reference)

to be abundantly clear the negativist citation is adorno

posting that was genuinely heartbreaking

i'm just fucking sad man, everything is a bummer. it is and will be fine, but there's just such a pinch in my heart

that too was messy and inarticulate, and not in a "waow so raw so deep way". i misspoke and my emphasis is still all wrong but whatever man i'm tired

i think tomorrow i'd like to find a place to hide and listen to music

no shortcut to reading

your thoughts aren't worth it otherwise. mine haven't for quite a while

humans are really sensitive and weak and disgusting in a nice way

squishy

proto-willow

that nap really helped whew

got weirdly self conscious about my voice today

ah no wonder i was tired and quiet, i walked 6 miles in dress clothes and a 20 pound bag

id still fuck david tho

i could use a water break first

hm that was ok, i think im usually a little too quiet

sweaty and humid now tho, i wanna take a shower

i’ll go find kitty

my walk took me off campus, which feels more significant

quite the effort to go from wizards to farm to suburbs

i think i’d kms if my house was within eyeshot of this fuckass place

they’re gonna rezone ur ass and build midwest disney world on top

i don’t think i wanna go back yet

imagine if i kept posting on main with this frequency like i used to, in all its mundanity. delusional to expect i could maintain it with all the eyes, and even more delusional to think it wasn’t affecting me

can’t step to the goat tho

why my toes hurt tho, what’s up w that

full backpack on fancier clothes also not so cozy on this walk

so much for ugm degen time, the activity is nice enough though. wish there were more dark corners

not much point logging in now that juli’s gone again, but it’s a good call for her. rebirth appropriate

gonna wander around campus waiting for her call, hopefully this helps. or yknow, fills space

currently listening: kevin devine’s joey cover

i love you too julie

some things still do go without saying youtu.be/lXZ-mApSq64

i didn’t realize the grok icon on tweets was an actual button and kasey and i played with it after discovering this fact the other day

i just thought it was like, idk, marketing or something? why would i grok a tweet bro

mary is literally so smart and skilled

today didn’t go 100% as planned but honestly i’m super content

5 hour post-breakup juliet call will fix you

spoke too soon lol

hard to feel bad though

idk i feel sympathy but its too messed up right now, i think it needs the reset

does is still count as compersion if the other person isn't necessarily happy?

oh wow shes better than i thought

really like ayu for her i think accly

more reflective and experienced, if not quite mature ? still hard to get a read on