I think my high school psych class was a massive turning point/ start for my political and philosophical perspectives. Very much informs my epistemic humility and first thing i experienced that was like "oh professional ppl in these fields thought this wacky stuff not long ago"
also recent discourse around school and bedtime abolition is fun because i had the unreasonable(ly based) positions before it started, feels great. also arguments over definitions/misunderstandings of words are primary and people dont really wanna look into stuff or be charitable
this day has felt so long, but in a good way. i finished 3 books. skipping lecture is so pog, and even going out wasnt totally a negative experience. being able to walk to shit feels really nice too
my YDSA meeting was so white lol. presenter guy was interesting about history of marxism, but discussion afterwards i could have had with libs lol. what an odd group, but i enjoy it i think. dont think im gonna find many other anarkiddies but what can ya do
Lol fight back by being exploited locally with poor worker rights/pay. Exploit your own workers. Run your own life. Your carbon footprint is nothing compared to the corporations that run you, so instead of challenging this authority attempt to become it yourself.
oh my god how i have not heard of this actor before hes so hot lmao (Timothée Chalamet for future research) also yeah im aware i might be a sexual narcissist so what
really good article:
Teachers as mothers in the elementary classroom: negotiating the needs of self and other
James, Jennifer Hauver
https://booksc.org/book/30306765/264409
also interesting how socdems and other progressive ppl are so against school abolition, while that and RA was the things that got me much more into anarchism, makes sense tho they struggle for better access for disadvantaged ppl
i love learning but i hate school - reading this book for class describing a classroom experience and holy fuck the secondhand embarrassment and anxiety ive had to stop 3 times now what a horrendous environment
Lmfao it sucks so fucking much being afraid to speak, finally doing it, then having a horrendous experience. I can feel my harmful psychological dispositions being reinforced and i hate it.
Basically what I expected out of YDSA meeting. They don’t meet too often so I think I’ll keep going. I’ll def follow along with reading group (someone likes Bookchin so copium maybe some libertarian socialists) and maybe will do some irl shit too if something seems interesting
Have an important recognition of the evolution on my perspective on the contents of my will (when I die document thing yk) and gail that I wanna think through after class
this guy got so mad today in class - collective action problem example +.5 grade pts if all cooperate, 2.5 if 1 defect, 0 if 2+ defect. 1st round 4 defect, 2nd round we get chance to talk, conclude we do public ballot rather than private, this guy gets so pissy lmao
Don’t think I mentioned this before but there are these 2 girls that are friends in my Ed Pol class that are super upbeat and kind and they paired with me before, very cool and understanding people. Felt very comfy with them during mock interview activity and was a little too
Mood flux like wild today :( really exhausting to go between so much - depressed numb content anxious lethargic disgusted pathetic sad functional excited frustrated rushed just back to back it’s a lot
Don’t think I’ve ever told anyone this but I’ve had fantasies for a long time of cutting the fat parts off of myself and they’re back rn. Ofc would never do it (doesn’t make practical sense, wouldn’t be effective, would be horrendously ugly even if it wasn’t bad for the obv)
Lol I hate college kids “ummm actually I don’t think it’s fair to judge the validity of Socrates’ arguments, he was doing the best he could at the time” no way you just historical-cultural relativism excused that
I have really weird habits sometimes lol - like very uncharacteristic activity. Usually this is bc I’m curious I think and then I do something outgoing. Today I went to the library in between classes and looked at books for over an hour which ig is pretty individual but still
Jenny Stewart 2009 Public Policy Values Chapter 1: What Are Policy Values? really good overview and categorization of policy values, good resources to look into
my body image violently swings and i hate it :( wish i could be pretty / wish i could view myself as pretty consistently (those are two very different things im aware and one is much more healthy of a desire but i cant help it :////
im so exhausted. school takes so much out of me holy shit. i tried doing some personal reading after hw today and i just could not get very far. to be fair im new to decolonialism and stuff so prob woulda struggled anyway
DSA moment lmao - yooo why are we fucking around with the international shitters just gimme healthcare. Socialism.. that is nationalistic.. why did no one think of this?? Obv not that bad ig but zoomer isolationist brain rot yikes
I have a hard time telling if discussions are so bad because ppl feel constrained socially or if they just haven’t thought that much. Latter makes sense bc class incentivize just getting work done not thinking deep and this might be first time thinking about, but still so boring