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i think taking primarily philosophy courses ruined my brain forever on how to deal with listening to presentations. i maintain this skeptical and suspended attitude, like it’s a thought experiment or hypothetical. i’m always shocked when the information is applicable in a direct context.
it is monday but i am determined not to have a mental health crisis tonight (brave) (inspiring) (😌)
me finding a new music genre: omg its so kewl! so much music all in the same style, how convenient :)
me after getting familiar with a genre: i hate genres i hate categories i hate conception abolish language i am the antichrist
it’s fun when my narcissism is stronger than my dys(phor/morph)ia
phenomenologically repulsive, corporeally elegant
the gulf between social interaction that drains me, saps me of life, requires subsequent recovery and that which invigorates, fulfills, injects with vitality, and feels like home is vast and palpable. it’s not merely a matter of enjoyment, it feels a qualitatively distinct mode of experience.
2 repliesthis is an odd thing to say given my recent behaviors, but i think i'm actually at the mentally healthiest i've been in a long long time
excel makes me want to never use a computer again
girls will really download github projects, struggle with wine prefixes, give up and switch operating systems, transfer files to hard drives with mutually compatible file formats, and create their own cover art before checking the description to see if an instrumental version already exists
1 repliesit’s incredibly stressful, disorienting, scary to rapidly shift between radically different identity masks, especially when this one has thorns inside and i’m coerced into putting it on
surprise: it was a secret third thing
every time someone comes over to my place i need to screw my lightbulbs back in so they can “see in front of themselves” and “not run into things”. whats up with that?
the dogs at my apartment complex are v homophobic
in their defense i look extra faggy today
this will either be:
- project completionist weekend
- pick up new projects that will forever go unfinished weekend
all day work training. mind numb
objective evidence that i’m becoming more normie over time
1 repliesmoishe stfu about newtonian time i wanna go hang out with disabled anime girls
2 repliesi love this song because i’m so violently ambivalent about it. i wouldn’t want it to be anything else.
1 repliesthe semantic meaning of lyrics are usually far less significant than their sonic contribution. the voice is just one instrument among many, and music that treats it as such is usually far more compelling.
postone's chapter on abstract time was the one's that stuck with me the least on my first reading, so i'm excited to revisit it now that i can appreciate it more viscerally.
all roads lead back to Waifu Wednesdays eventually
the people demand another fusq EP
!foryou
i dont understand why people want to maintain moralistic concepts when it’s clearly so cumbersome. just say that this is violence and that you’re okay with it. you don’t even have to jump to “justifying” it, since that already assumes violence is inherently or even primarily evil by default.
it’s very silly but messaging people and not getting a reply right away can sometimes make me extremely self conscious and anxious. and then like 5% of my brain’s RAM is dedicated to worrying about it until i hear something back or decide to let it go. i need to work on that somehow, very unhealthy
lol i added the firefox delay blocker to my filers and it's so much faster. fuck google.
if anyone's interested:www.youtube.com##+js(nano-stb, resolve(1), *, 0.001)
or:www.youtube.com##+js(nano-stb, resolve(1), 5000, 0.001)