Windy cold weather + punk (no ca$h) + walk home is nice :)

Also I def got my groove back after reading manga for a bit, only took like 2 volumes

Attending a YDSA talk tonight titled “what will socialism look like?” And I’m ready to be disappointed

also valkyrae is having a bunch of drama rn for the blue light skincare scam and it would be really interesting to see what gail thinks lmfao

nvm found my groove listening to k-indie and reading Bloom Into You manga

still stuck in this rut. its not even like i feel like i have to be productive or something, its more like im not enjoying leisure activities either. its kinda annoying :/

I’ve been feeling really restless but also really tired and overwhelmed. Like I want to do something but I’m too depressed and tired to do anything of substance, so I just watch mindless YouTube or something

👏no more thinking about gail before you to go sleep 👏 you will dream about her 👏

I haven’t been updating very much recently, I think Ive been partially overwhelmed and partially sad and partially just not feeling like reflecting. Food has been weird I don’t really wanna talk about it

Watched Wolf Children anime movie and kept thinking about how funny it would be to watch it with Gail. The furry moments are actually hilarious and often super cringe even tho I liked it overall, like the wolf having weird human hair or being edgy for no reason

feelin a bit depressi today. skipped all my classes, watching anime, avoiding doing heavy reading.

someone used "they" as a pronoun for me when most people would normally have used "he" :)) happy moment

Lmfao some guy just justified private property by saying it’s biologically inherent not just to humans but all animals

Had a really weird dream where my dad was throwing knives at us on the trampoline. Gail was there too lol idk

holy fuck this is so fucking based https://youtu.be/TWkTeeejS8k

:)

Lmfao I’m so done with outside

I wanna go home :( going out bad

Burned through a ton of the Malatesta anthology today; super clear writing, but not theoretically light either. Seriously such a kind and realistic person, genuinely committed to the wellbeing of all.

We are anarcho-syndicalists on the shop floor, green anarchists in the woods, social anarchists in our communities, individualists when you catch us alone, anarcho-communists when there’s something to share, insurrectionists when we strike a blow.

episode 21 of devilman (1972) truly shows the dangers of centralization and therefore the misguided foundations of the modern liberal state. in this essay i will

Lmfao I love this table of contents. Introduction intricately broken down The Theory of Moral Sentiments Appendix “Dude Smith’s chapter organization is a bitch I’m not fucking with that lmao, good luck”

thats it shut it down no more peer reviews this is a waste of time gg

Oop

posted this classic quote in the gamer gc and they agreed lets goo

https://ia803104.us.archive.org/24/items/ZineArchive/KilltheCoupleinyourHead_READ-1.0.pdf this shit is too goddamn based love it

I hate being seen :( so exhausting

Alright I’ve decided to never go to discussion this shit is so boring - hey guys what do we think about meritocracy and the American dream soy boring zzzzz for anyone that’s thought about it for more than a minute

holy fuck dude im gonna barf i cant handle tucking/ gaff shit so uncomfy holy shit like i get why people would be motivated enough to do that but holy shit i cannot thats too brutal ow owoowowowow

https://youtu.be/OthVYNXOSsY this is really good brief explainer on this thing that i think does a really good job of not discrediting the importance of identity politics - idk about the attachment of "postmodern" label esp bc all quotes are kinda coming from marxists

Dreamt about waiting for gail to be done with something so i could see her, at glacier edge, but taking forever, I get frustrated it’s taking so long so I leave and go to car in parking lot, find mom driving g cart with student, explain frustration, gail comes up as apparently

i brushed my hair after my shower before going out and i felt really pretty about it, even if other stuff is weird rn i have that

I hate all this neutrality devils advocate shit in classrooms fuck you take a position this is bullshit lmfao

Someone in class today is wearing the cutest shit that’s giving me so much euphoria envy shit Pink sweater - textured, not turtle neck but some bigger looser neck thing idk, slits on the base sides that girls have Black leggings White girls boots - not clunky very slim

Everyone confuses meta ethics and normative ethics and it makes discussions worthless

Lmao my teacher introduced Hume as a “pudgy guy” or something

How to self harm without leaving lasting damage that I’ll be annoyed with later

I could probably have time to bleed out for a few days before anyone came to check

Can I just die for a little bit

Desperately want to stay home for a week to figure my shit out

I went for a walk/run 5 mi feel like fucking shit

I’m so fucking erratic I wanna die lol

Today was the strongest inclinations I’ve had to purge lol I still really want to this fucking sucks I hate myself so much

haha binge binge binge binge binge binge binge hahahahahhahahaha

disgusting fucking ugly i hate myself

Speaking of gender expression, I sure hate mine today :D

"Gender expression is an important part of every person's identity, and it's inborn - not something we choose." from Jacob's New Dress. bruh nah can we stop with this shit how would that even work. ah yes before i was introduced to culturally contingent modes of gender expression

listening to the audiobook for start here, start now by liz kleinrock and its mostly really good but fuck man youth liberation again is a huge missing thing i feel. like often its so so so mcuh better than anything else ive read but now were at a section where shes saying things

finishing prison by any other name, still budget foucault, but has some good recent data, desperately desperately needs youth liberation frame

Absurd contradictory and rapidly shifting emotional states tn