i've only ever known truthy and falsey.. booleans arent real they can't hurt u

not to dwell on this point but if you knew how ardently i refused to do literally anything beyond what was strictly necessary in my adolescence, i think my current behavior makes a lot more sense

what do we think, am i staying up to watch a movie at 1am with the ex server

id rather be a kantian than a utilitarian or empiricist

this treads into weird territory that instrumentalizes the people you interact with to the extreme, and the reinforcement of that habit shouldn't be ignored, but yknow there's gradations to it

which is why i can't really be all that upset at myself for doing obviously stupid things

i want to move out of this town someday, just to experience something new

it's frankly astonishing how much less anxious ive become

slightly distasteful repost for a privileged american (even among americans) but yknow someone had to say it

kasey kitty is so cute

watch this i'm gonna do something cool

i feel kinda prog fuzzy even tho i didn't take prog

not everything is worth noting

oh damn i didn't even realize we upgraded lol

miserable ngl

realest shit you'll ever see

saturday-only was a great meta because coordinating with the nightmare 8 hour timezone gap is torture

going to try some app time limits to encourage me to do better things, but i don't have a great sense for what i should set them to yet

im still catching up on sleep debt

im in bed without a shirt on and i completely stand corrected, sleeping without clothes is way better

you're holding it wrong

i get into moods where i'm excessively negative and cynical about my motivations, sleep deprivation doesn't help

evolving from "will write a long ass thread about you on a secret alt" to "will write a long ass thread about you in your dms"

main_tabel

i've been overinvested in social and underinvested in being an interesting person

okay i'm kind of sick of my shit

meh barrow is boring

things are going well so far

how am i supposed to get enough sleep when i wake up at 1:30am with excitement and joy in my heart

i hope i didn't tucker myself out too much by talking all night but it was comfy

okay i know this wouldnt make a ton of sense, but i can't help but think about how the new denpa-chan coulda been improved with some atproto, and would actually have some pretty interesting app features

does anyone want an invite to denpa-chan

i just realized that what i had been calling "sentimental" would more accurately be described as "romanticized avoidance"

dude i love being a boy

lol

idk how i oscillate so sharply between prideful and dismissive / frail and emotional without feeling much dissonance at all

there's been so much waffling about today lol

im glad i didn't prep for that call, i know way more than i let on

idk i think i screwed up with kasey rn, were so light on interaction

im not too pleased with the energy ive been exuding this week, hoping that connecting with people will make me feel less aimless and ungrounded

post-abandonment recap is mega cursed

kick drums are boring but important is my take but i also don't do fancy listening things or production so who knows

sex repulsed but only when others express their sexuality and only because it makes me think less of them intellectually

wouldn't give up being a boy for anything

wtf is happening on youtube, what do u mean "fifth wave / midwest emo" those are totally different!

im just an ineloquent little fella

not so negative !

i can't believe time just keeps passing, it's a little horrifying