i wanted to record a video diary reflecting on the evening I had with M, but my brother called needing help with his computer and now I’m too tired ;;

windows updates are actually such a wild concept to me now. like your computer just being unusable for half an hour, thats insane.

i get that its cool to dunk on the brits but i actually find a lot of their expressions incredibly endearing

monday mornings are so rough for my eyes, first time they’re exposed to light in 64 hours

kawaii future bass and sadboi rap AMVs were historically the most important influences on getting me initially more interested in anime

the low hum of pc fans kinda comforting sometimes

unscrewed 3/4 of the lights in my room, still too bright when I’m forced to turn it on. gotta get softer bulbs

I didn’t know Mormons couldn’t have caffeine, that makes sense why the ones I knew had their own carbonation machine

even if i change the cover art there's no way i'm getting away with the title †新感覚獣姦魔法少女☆マジカル褐色ロリエルフ† - チカっとチカ痴漢

convos with some of my friends make me feel like a character in a socratic dialogue "it is certainly so, just as you have said. my brains must have been addled to even consider the contrary to your evidently astute judgement"

my level of trust in relation to view count can roughly be modeled by: y = (100,000/x) - 10 where x is views and y is Trust Units

listening to my autistic homies is extremely comforting and very relatable but then i get weird moments where i worry i’m just being dramatic and appropriating real struggle and it’s like bro you don’t even believe in the ontology of psychology much less the tiktokification of it, don’t sweat it

2cp…..

current solution to adblock: - use youtube site directly as a front end - Context Command EXecutor extension to open context menu - open in mpv still feeling out invidious, but yeah we'll see. wild that my phone is better for ads atm

The straights are not ok

ooh baby a triple

I turn into such a blabbermouth around my brother lol

i’m unironically looking forward to the end of the month so i can have fresh data for my budget

orange lounge!!!

my analyst doesn’t know what a PB HAR is it’s all over vro

i love coding with 3x speed music :>

anthropology underestimates the extent to which the subjects of its study are self aware duplicitous poasters

damn, post ironic memey posting doesn’t work when you follow it up by genuinely being a whiny sensitive bitch

ugly and fat 🙃

her hand print lingers on my windshield from when she crushed that bug….. 💔

How is it possible that 100% of the mail I receive is intended for a recipient that is not me, and how come there are 5 different identities receiving mail at my address

Noooo do NOT let the retarded puppy (me) change production!!!! Retarded puppy (me): *paws at your void and repost utility* arf arf uwu Oh god half the UCLs were excluded Some hard drive containing PHI in Arkansas: *sizzles and pops*

Update on this lovely never ending saga

somehow today I ended up explaining subahibi to 5 coworkers in a meeting today and someone looked it up and found the phrase “abhorrent sexual content”

the world is a vast agglomeration of violent abstractions and intersecting oppressive systems some rich white guy from the global north: ok but have we considered how this makes the functionally pacifying source of cultural reproduction mildly more inconvenient for me to access

hopefully this bout of youtube being as openly hostile to ux as possible will be enough for me to break my addiction

It’s nice how I made it through summer into fall wearing hoodies the whole time

Dawg make up your mind

i like the angsty samples at the start of midwest emo songs

Pragmatism claims that the philosophical impulse begins when one encounters problematic situations, a failure that forces one into reflection. I can confirm that this is true because my life is a recurrent series of failures.

Yesterday was a really really good day. Felt like I was beaming w joy at points, mentally stimulated, and had high energy. Today just kinda sucked and felt no motivation and frustration.

just realized my phone can wirelessly charge and I’ve had a Qi charging station sitting next to me for the past 4 years with an extra open spot

College was cool because it let me be a coddled baby without adult responsibility for a while so I could figure stuff out, but guess what? I’m still too stupid. Guess I better apply for grad school.

vulgar Marxism base-superstructure analysis but it’s my gut biome determining my psychological state

obv the anti-adblock is egregious, but the most tragic change in this update batch is that mouse clicks outside of the add to playlist prompt actually work to click on things now. i don't want to click your x, just let me close the prompt grrrr

I just realized one way of interpreting the phrase “categorical attraction to ___” is “attracted to the category of ___” which is way different than “attracted to ___ ‘without exception or qualification’”. I had always disliked the phrase bc of the latter meaning, but the former is totally tenable.

my discord diary has atrophied since i started posting here

Evidence #542

today i was on a call with someone for several hours talking through their relationship issues and they seemed to really like my advice and appreciate my listening, but tbh i was a little bored and thought they both were completely wrong-headed

she's like the only person that has been able to function with my relationship preferences long-term and i'm very appreciative

i genuinely have no idea what answer they're expecting here because its the 08 civics test so technically George Bush was president at the time bc Obama wasn't sworn in until Jan 09, but he was elected ig. And Biden being an option doesn't even indicate that the test was updated bc he was VP lol

i spent a huge amount of my day uninstalling and reinstalling s2yt and its dependencies for a tutorial. at least now i really really understand how it all works

not having fun