Health unto Death. If such a thing as a psycho-analysis of today’s prototypical culture were possible; if the absolute predominance of the economy did not beggar all attempts at explaining conditions by the psychic life of their victims; and if the psychoanalysts had not long since sworn allegiance

to those conditions – such an investigation would needs show the sickness proper to the time to consist precisely in normality. The libidinal achievements demanded of an individual behaving as healthy in body and mind, are such as can be performed only at the cost of the profoundest mutilation,

of internalized castration in extroverts, beside which the old renunciation of identification with the father is the child’s play as which it was first rehearsed. The regular guy, the popular girl, have to repress not only their desires and insights, but even the symptoms that in bourgeois times

resulted from repression. Just as the old injustice is not changed by a lavish display of light, air and hygiene, but is in fact concealed by the gleaming transparency of rationalized big business, the inner health of our time has been secured by blocking flight into illness

without in the slightest altering its aetiology. The dark closets have been abolished as a troublesome waste of space, and incorporated in the bathroom. What psycho-analysis suspected, before it became itself a part of hygiene, has been confirmed. The brightest rooms are the secret domain of faeces.

The verses: ‘Wretchedness remains. When all is said, / It cannot be uprooted, live or dead. / So it is made invisible instead’, are still more true of the psychic economy than of the sphere where abundance of goods may temporarily obscure constantly increasing material inequalities.

No science has yet explored the inferno in which were forged the deformations that later emerge to daylight as cheerfulness, openness, sociability, successful adaptation to the inevitable, an equable, practical frame of mind.

There is reason to suppose that these characteristics are laid down at even earlier phases of childhood development than are neuroses: if the latter result from a conflict in which instinct is defeated, the former condition, as normal as the damaged society it resembles,

stems from what might be called a prehistoric surgical intervention, which incapacitates the opposing forces before they have come to grips with each other, so that the subsequent absence of conflicts reflects a predetermined outcome,

the a priori triumph of collective authority, not a cure effected by knowledge. Unruffled calm, already a prerequisite for applicants receiving highly-paid posts, is an image of the stifled silence that the employers of the personnel manager only later impose politically.

The only objective way of diagnosing the sickness of the healthy is by the incongruity between their rational existence and the possible course their lives might be given by reason. All the same, the traces of illness give them away: their skin seems covered by a rash printed in regular patterns,

like a camouflage of the inorganic. The very people who burst with proofs of exuberant vitality could easily be taken for prepared corpses, from whom the news of their not-quite-successful decease has been withheld for reasons of population policy. Underlying the prevalent health is death.

All the movements of health resemble the reflex-movements of beings whose hearts have stopped beating. Scarcely ever does an unhappily furrowed brow, bearing witness to terrible and long-forgotten exertions, or a moment of pathic stupidity disrupting smooth logic,

or an awkward gesture, embarrassingly preserve a trace of vanished life. For socially ordained sacrifice is indeed so universal as to be manifest only in society as a whole, and not in the individual. Society has, as it were, assumed the sickness of all individuals,

:( mm36 kinda day

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maybe my ears are scared

bawling my eyes out i love u mark ty for remembering

nervously runs my hand through my hair

comfort comfort comfort please

:3

@number-one-warned.rat.mom whatever you do, do NOT scroll up in that thread to catch me having a kasey moment

me neither sister

felt sometimes

another one

as soon as we get a new pope im telling them u misgendered luce

luce

hehehe caught

of course you feel comfortable saying this now…

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holy shit fuck yes you’re so cool

honestly shocked an account made it this long

this is what we were up to a year ago

plowable phenotype

breaking the glass on ur did doc

ur right tho, nothing stopping you from having effectively priv pds behind extra layers of auth, at that point its just a weird lil instance with data structured the atproto way

ooooh you’d have to get fancy with it for phi but in principle it could make interop way better too, like unironic did:gov and canonical identity

well wait maybe i’m stupid, can you set up the same did:web in multiple pdses, at least in theory

i got a px dw hehe

achieving this by posting one lab result at a time

🥺 okay fine i’ve reconsidered

it means i am now 159 lbs and it makes me sad

(not the number, more just the way my body feels at such a weight)

my hrt doc is so chill lmao i’m just like “yeah i lied to you, i’ve been taking a higher dose” and she’s like “that’s chill i’ll just prescribe you more then”

guys did you know socialism is when the workers own the means of production

- things i would post if i was evil and stupid

got weighed again today, this is your formal notice that this is now an #edsky account

okay real, we must retvrn