see also: "i'm not out here posting about it, because i know haven't lurked enough. stupid motherfuckers posting without lurking aaaaaa witches"

check back in a few decades and i might have something to say :)

idk how exactly to communicate that this isn't like a bummer or anything, and the right temperament is not anxiety or shame or frustration, it's just a splash of humility while you play and learn

also! you're more likely to be snuck up on and have worthwhile things to say before you know it if you're not like explicitly trying to do so i think

How I Learned To Stop Worrying And Accumulate Words Worth Saying

this is a round about way of engaging with ppl in juliet's replies about writing, i think she's "earned it" in a sense, and if you're the type of person still having angst about what to write, you're probably not ready yet (which is okay!)

this is a bit of a naive and romantic view i'm expressing, something like "writing should be like achilles-ing" and that the topic should come to you not the other way around, i don't know if i really buy it, but i do think it's an orienting moment, even if ultimately superceded

also i'm saying "writing" but obvi this really applies to communication more broadly, and i like the idea that there are different modes of communication spanning a variety of spectra, some of which being more like "experience" and others being more reflective

maybe can be thought of as consuming and producing modes? thats rather vulgar but it gets at some decent approximations. i also think its vulgarity highlights the error of the perspective espoused above, that there is this more or less explicit disdain for production without prior consumption,

but surely some of the most relevant consumption one could have would be productive attempts and failures. i also think that i'm the one imposing the abstraction inappropriately, as i'm ripping those comments from their contexts:

"realism in creative writing is likely more effective if you have some real experiences" & "you'll make less of a fool of yourself in dedicated hobbyist groups if you familiarize yourself with their touchstones and cultural mores" are a far cry from imperatives to silence until [nebulous end state]

i like hanging on kaseys shoulder and implicitly pouting for attention

i think i have to come to terms with the fact that the only people i can love are workaholics or neets

bonus points if both

HIM is just a weird freak of an app

begging devs for client mods what are you 5 years old? ublock or userscripts are right there

that being said if it’s like insidious that’s different, but cosmetic ui is free reign

have i mentioned that i’m really psyched for seattle actually

i think it’d be really cozy to visit when it’s lightly snowing

meh i hit an energy lull

energy lows hit in a way more unappealing way when you’re not in an environment of your choice

like last night i was probably a little too excited about talking to juliet but even when i settled, i landed on a contented fatigue

i don’t want to obtuse about the possibility of walking yourself into rakes (i have plenty of experience with that), so maybe it has much more to do with the direct social and sensory aspects of the environment and much less to do with nebulous approximations of autonomy

whatever the diagnosis, i’m not too cheery about it, but it’s fine and i’ll decompress

classic georgia license plate parking too close to the line

okay wait i get how kasey sees the appeal in being a grimy little shit

it’s so fun to play with the little characters in my head

maybe one of these days i’ll try butler again

guy who’s okay at recognition: oh yeah that’s familiar

can u believe they stole my kasey

i have a thing for dangerous chicks that could bring down the vibe

okay fine i have a thing for a dangerous chick that could bring down the vibe

why is the audio so quiet waaa

dude windows is so ass

call it didi the way this shit is mega doodoo

lmfao i’m so retarded

/pos :)

i really need to restart my computer and change my mouse

charge*

big fan of only sampling the E in “EA sports”

KMOE ILY

alright that’s what’s up

creatures lie here :)

the nostalgia medley at 27m goes hard

yesss dude i love dis one

omfg it’s OMFG

despite everything going on the simple drum breaks are the most satisfying part

finished just in time for a meeting, neat set

fleeting likes retracted