the greater the distance the more i admire how insightful i was by the end of college, like i was right about all the the things to be skeptical about and resistant to, at least in terms of the anticipated affects.

i would say "the main thing i was under-prepared/experienced for was how much i could tolerate before giving in" but no, that was anticipated too and was regarded as one of the more depressing realities.

anyway, i specifically mean this with reference to something rather trivial and kind of cute. i used to basically regard it as a point of pride (or rather, that the alternative would be more regrettable) that i was untalented at my job for a variety of reasons.

and now that i have genuinely improved, i get these annoying urges and i see myself becoming more work-obsessed/interested/invested, like kasey. like "oh this guy said something wrong in an email let me correct him and provide a bunch of evidence" or go out of my way to correct things

for when you want to repost something but its against your religion

peak, ily

i kinda hate what passes as lefty or “socialist” because they try to talk policy and are just objectively worse than the policy wonk liberals

i would have socially transitioned by now if kasey didn’t give me a black woman’s name

just like me fr

this account is a safe space for me to acknowledge my previous life as a dgger

customer: “waaa waaa show me return on investment” project manager: *throws me under the bus while simultaneously lying* willow (god): i did a demo last week for the exact functionality you said doesn’t exist (to the people CC’d??), here is the email receipts and toolkit i already created

since i divorced from the willow name it is now appropriate to call my worksona that you’ll notice my main display name was updated accordingly the other day

it was an amicable break up tho, shared custody and all

did you know there is a unique transaction status for unmatched $0 payments

and they don’t show in the visits tab!

i just think this is a neat slice

you’ve got this genuinely, no sweat for someone like u

is there a girl version of “a fella like me”

35 y/o who age regresses to 31

i haven’t figured out the punchline yet but it’s in there somewhere

lol as expected that was kind of a disaster but in a hilarious way

i keep saying unintentionally offensive things and we’re both introverts and don’t wanna be here

the dynamic of early 20s and mid 30s trying to be peers

and she kinda has to protect her pride and i don’t have enough tact to respect it properly

lol wait where do i know that girl from

i gave her directions, i defi met her at some party thing right? it wasn’t with muen tho

ohhhh we went drinking together in tennessee during go-live

“the dumbest things i ever said were between 17 and 25” yea me too, tho 25 might be optimistic

okay but linking the whole handbook is crazy 😭

lol maybe a bit more blunt than i intended

ya thanks kathleen

i needed an extra clause or two

i’m wagging my tail so hard i wanna hang w kasey

i’m gonna make a terrible first impression today and i think that’s extremely funny

luckily it’s like the only thing i have to do (except for the 3 hours of other stuff)

surely today is the day

i like my body

that’s cuz the book kinda sucked sorry

i know i cry a lot about everything and that kasey still has some reservations about the visit but im just really looking forward to seeing hailey again

last time we were pretty silent from the curb through the lobby until her apartment, this time i don’t know if i’ll be able to hold back that long (though i know ill feel safer and more gratified if i do)

just imagining hugging her is filling me with fuller emotions than i’ve had all month, and i’m once again curled up and quietly sobbing. it will feel, in a weird sense, at home, i think. returning someplace safe i adore.

my first visit affected me a lot; i felt intensely and those old feelings are being resurfaced. a lot of complex things have happened since then, i know, but still. there was a special hailey i only got to see in person and if i get a glimmer of her again this time, ill be more than content

i can temper my expectations and i won’t make it more than it is etc etc, but what it is is enough and beautiful and important to me