idk maybe i'm frustrated about being incompetent again and about how slowly i learn

i overdid it tonight but the alternative of doing nothing in bed again is so lame

i know i should take it easy still, i know there's no use in overexerting myself and extending the duration of exhaustion, but like :(

i don't mind so much when it's voluntary but when the tired-making activity is boring and undesired it makes the downtime all the more drab

idk but people keep trying to make me into one to boost the numbers

see also

it's embarrassing because i have no reason to be tired given the raw amount of work performed, but between the anxiety of interacting with backups and the required socialization of being in a room with dozens of people for 11 hours a day, it really does take a toll on me

that sinking feeling when my past actions come to haunt me subtitle: my job makes me act on like 20% epistemic certainty at all times subsubtitle: skill issue

go-live is socially exhausting, hour and a half long lunch break is worse than any work obligation

im just gonna run and hide for the next hour

humbly i think i have the best diary microblog posting out there

like yea the volume can be high at times but i think often the content is personal and engaging and not excessively vague, it isn't just filled with excessive rumination nor excessive descriptions, it's just thoughts i have and they tend to be reasonably varied

i freaking love the kirby kiss blush gif

muhahaha for my next devious scheme i will ingest 200mg prog and allow my body to rest and recover

time to lay down in the dark and warm

fun fact: you do not need a cuddle buddy if you have a warm and soft blanket instead

if i designed an api i would make poor choices and then painfully redesign it later

hack: first draft api routes under /v0/ so when you're forced to iterate it looks less embarrassing

olivia said my hair looked really pretty and had beautiful curls today and i blushed so hard

still sensitive but they actually feel a lot better by now, which is a relief

honestly this was really uncomfortable and i was worried when i woke up this morning and it was still off

hehe thats funny

wasn't kidding

she's exercising her pelvic floor for an amazing reason

understimming my ears as an apology

it's probably good that im on go-live this week to discourage their usage, as long as the room doesn't get too loud

yea i fixed it, should be good to go now 🙂 wild what a bit of fear and love can do

i took a class where we spent the entire semester just doing a close reading of the prince with a machiavelli scholar and it was seriously way more fascinating than i thought it would be going in, i hope you get a lot out of it

gn chat, see u tmrw for wagie wednesday o7

i know danii knows about this account but i hope it doesn't peek so i get the chance to process things and have my framing be apt to that understanding, rather than the version presented here

one of the cool things about catch-up call is that we get to really engage back and forth on each topic, in a way that would be undercut by foreknowledge

being an adult is great sometimes

i had the brilliant foresight to pack a change of shirt and sweatshirt, i felt v refreshed at the top of the night

whew home

1am car wash listening to an incel talk about how they started dating a filipina trans girl on a dating app, life doesn't get better than this

also it was a dating app for autistic people and he's extremely depressed about it, it's so funny

i took good care of my hair today and it was rewarding and still smells and feels nice

"have a good one" is just a goated universally applicable pleasantry imperative

posts a lot: apologies to o

alright the adrenaline is wearing off, the two hours left of this drive are gonna be tiring

my feet are sore lol

can't wait to get home and wash my face

i should have gotten an extra water, i didn't realize id be this thirsty

cue not queue!

got gas at bp... girl the boycott

ill probably get hearing back in my right ear tomorrow

live mixing 18 pieces is never gonna be perfect, like it got fairly muddy at times and the keys could have used more prominence but all in all it was pretty solid

tho ill be surprised if they can make a usable live album out of it tbh

with a full discography the setlist is always gonna be a little rocky but the final track really closed nicely

artist order was spot on btw