nathan snaza, animate literacies: literature, affect, and the politics of humanism, page 81, bewilderment chapter
(his work isn't that great but there have been a few phrasings [of the same tired ideas] that have stuck with me)
refreshing the kasey feed and getting annoyed there’s no new posts, then remembering that’s because she’s been sleeping next to you for the past few hours
yea, it's not great and the drudgery can be a bit demotivating. tho nonetheless i look back on it as an intellectually stimulating environment (usually by accident) with more free time (at least comparatively to now)
but thats coming from the privileged perspective where my education was paid for by my parents (and i didn't have to work during) so the question of it being "worth" it didn't really arise. most degrees tho will make financial sense in the long run still, but that doesn't speak much to enjoyment