the quote chain goes back to a now-deleted post of someone doing some normie “what lyrics are you feeling rn”-esque prompt thing and i’ve just kept it going ig
it’s usually less about the lyrics themselves and more about me just using the screenshot as a signifier for the music it’s a constituent element of being significant to me at that moment
attending a division meeting and i’m convinced the recording could be presented without revision or comment to non-Americans as effective propaganda to why the US should be burned down
it's really sad to think about honestly, the counterfactual of what i could be. and it's easy to think like "oh that's dumb just do the thing anyway" but what i'm mourning is not so much the activities themselves but the type of self that would be motivated to do said activities
that's compatible with saying that nonetheless i am the person i am and have the desires i do, and behaving in accordance with them. but yea idk i'm just tired and i'm sad about who i am and the historical context i find myself in. i think it'd be interesting to be more spontaneous and inquisitive
it's really funny because if i specified what spurred this reflection and what discrete activities i had in mind, everyone who knows me would find it absurd and laughable, but obviously i just take that to be grist for my mill on this point
im gonna be honest im super thrilled jordan is gone.
yes i am one of those cringe oldheads that substantially blame him for bmth's direction, at least in terms of causal responsibility