i don’t trust girl streamers that have their hair in front of the headphone band - yes darling ur gorgeous but i refuse to believe ur comfy :(

i’m too tall for my shower ._.

i have turned evil and started learning JS and bruh who named half this shit or decided the syntax? it's unbearable. pop?? shift?? ugly and inconvenient colons and semicolons for no reason. even if i didn't know the war crimes JS has committed against the denizens of the wired i would hate it.

also i'm aware i haven't earned the ability to critique yet but idc this page is for my lil throwaway takes uwu

so based

i was reading the documentation again yesterday at work and that was such a raw line that i just opened up my work laptop so i could find exactly where it was lmao

having 4 different versions can be a lil confusing to find, but the redundancy is sometimes super nice bc the same content is explained in different ways

also it's fun the see the writing style evolve over time - much more first person and casual in v1

turns out you crash really hard running on no sleep and caffeine

the ideas in question: local function get_msg_table(user,channel) local time, date = get_time_date() local msg = get_msg() return {time,date,user.unsme,user.uid,channel.id,channel.name,msg} end local function save_msg(user,channel) local t = get_msg_table local file = io.open(“users/“..uid..”.lua”)

girls will post mock up code in bed to bsky instead of getting up and writing it properly

it’s broken rn but i ran out of characters

also it’s not even the interesting part lmfao it’s just management

but!!! it’s coooool because everyyyything is a table

slept for 3 hours, too many ideas to go back to sleep

changing my ios keyboard to not use caps last week was like the greatest increase in comff, can’t believe it took me 8+ years

even if some of Heaven Knows feels like a return to form for pinkpantheress, even at its best it feels so much more hollow than to hell with it

i was already in bed but i had too many ideas so i stayed up for a few hours writing them out

it was really cool tho, now that i’m branching out from mpv apis im learning the language a lot better. i only had to reference the docs a few times, otherwise it just flowed

how can i be expected to sleep when instead i could be creating a local cli chat program that uses txt files as its database

it’s so scuffed and stupid lmao but i’m having fun

the zoophilia article is honestly just boring, banal, incoherent, analytic nonsense (intuition? rights? hedonic utilitarianism? autonomy? consent-bloating? all of the above!), but it’s obviously correct with the individual battles it takes within the respective domains

it does have some big misses tho - like the quote does not support this argument and it’s very weak ground. there are a few places like this where they try to lean on the differences between humans and animals that i think fall completely flat.

all this to say, it’s pretty much the most you could expect given the tradition and audience they’re writing for

i don’t understand Deck users at all, but i’m so glad Valve is still pushing them for the sake of linux

vim is hard and i am noob, i shouldve just forced myself to learn this when i had more time

it’s really annoying how oriented around jobs the programming community is. like i just love the craft and wanna improve and all people talk about is jobsjobsjobsjobjobs

and i get it, like every skill has to be about that to some extent, it can’t be divorced from the economic context of the world - but CS is just rabidly and eagerly talking about labor at every possible turn

dawg no shot they put a 'for you' section on channel pages jfc. it's trivial to block but still absurd to have an ever-burgeoning proportion of all websites be algorithmic recommendation. i don't want your brain worms!!!!

I like all the little vocal and verbal habits I’ve picked up from people over the years, a cute reminder when I talk of how intimately and irrevocably they’ve touched my life even if we no longer interact

girl who says “b smile” out loud to herself in reference to B) : i gotta skeet about this

1. go to group meeting to get help with issue i’m having 2. spend whole time dwelling on how or when to say something 3. leave the hour long meeting without saying a single word i couldn’t even focus on fixing stuff myself bc i was so anxious

rainy driving + watering daycore

what about it?

i would be a significantly different person if it weren't for the guy i worked with in high school that exposed me to heavy metal, overwatch, and a deeply cynical worldview

honestly probably had a larger influence on my development of an eating disorder and general trajectory in life than i'd care to admit

not sure why i'd be reticent - i suppose it just feels quaint and diminutive to be so impressionable, and that that influence has such large ripples that i couldn't untangle myself from even if i wanted to

but it's also clearly far too simplistic a model - but the connection is clear enough to say there is some causal relation, and it's interesting to explore from that lens

despite being a vertical tab diehard for years, i’m just now coming around to appreciate tree tabs

having a record of thoughts here makes me seem significantly more unwell than i feel

choking myself and the constriction and tightness is comforting, but I run into an ugly feature (features) of my neck and it’s disgusting and now i wanna cry

im embarrassed and stupid and trying im sorry

do you know who you're talking to? you're looking at the proud creator of a script that extract an ass file from a mkv and turns it into a formatted txt (using lua's bootleg regex) so yeah, a moron

(i struggled for hours but made it through PinocchioP's discography and it was cozy)

resolving already solved and trivial problems in worse ways, it never gets old

I’m thinking all the time now, but it’s all just chatter and nonsense. In part, the problem is how packed things are. With more time, you have the energy, ability, and desire to discover the profundity in mundanity.

In college sometimes it felt like every day was an opportunity to grow and make new observations, but now my brain just feels dull and lifeless. I feel my most active and alive when at my most sedentary, and now that option has been stripped away from me.

cry more homo, you’re just dumb and have art school dropout energy with none of the creativity. you have no teleology except Labor, and should be grateful to be alienated from your species-being - it’s the only purpose you serve. you’re pathetic, whiny, and privileged. shut the fuck up.

But fr I kinda get it now why there’s so much dogshit philosophy, it’s excruciating to come up with a modicum of wisdom under modern conditions