The worst thing about getting a strike on youtube is not being able to add anything to playlists, so everything piles up in my watch later until I can organize it all

It’s kinda wild how much less gas I use now that I no longer live downtown

Every sensory input is a violent intrusion. I am disgusted by the stench, the repulsive texture, the cacophony that is the external world.

I miss the lockdowns, leaving my house every day is really hard

I wish more of my mental problems were ego-syntonic. Anorexia and mania and self harm are fun to ride the high with, depression and anxiety are just tiring and inconvenient.

Surely my erratic emotions and lack of motivation/energy have nothing to with my volatile and inadequate sleep schedule

It’s so fucking humiliating being completely incompetent

Gnawing at my fingers until I can taste the blood from my exposed flesh

That was the most masculine rage I’ve felt in a long time, I’m so fucking tense and I feel so pathetic

Ok I’m chill now

I actually think posting everyday things is gonna be extremely unhealthy for me if I keep it up. I’m kinda miserable all the time and encouraging myself to make quasi-public note of it, instead of just powering through, makes it so much worse. One of the reasons having IRLs is so difficult for me.

I hate how clothes feel on my body. But not having every inch covered is unbearable. ugly ugly ugly

I’m effectively useless at my job without someone holding my hand the whole time. It’s annoying (I’m sure to others more than me) but I can’t bring myself to care enough to dramatically improve.

yesterday a few guy friends of a friend came over to my place and when they found out i only use my fridge for a water pitcher they moved and unplugged it for me. very cute, dudes rock sometimes

>notices UI inconsistency >wonder if there's a fix >finds bug report >success.png >bug has been open over 20 years, last post 5mo ago >200 posts of devs arguing back and forth about who understands UI philosophy better and if this is even a real issue >multiple complete patches, 0 commits >nvm fml

i might try not being a repost bot on this platform - best chance is probably flippant nichijou-kei posting but that's pretty far outside my comfort zone

neon genesis evangelion is kinda meh so far, we'll see tho

Also found this on Isaiah’s pc

dont know how i feel about. lots of things are prob pretty good, esp bc the reasons he hasn't been enganging with them are kinda iffy, but still a little weird to be pressured into certain things. overall just interesting ig

oh yea btw grandma broke her hip after we left lmao nice

i normally default to the latter but she was asking a lot so i prob had the space and time and interest to go into it more, but idk if i was comfy with it completely, esp given the environment. not to mention the type of question being asked was very like analytic philosophy

type for lack of a better description. "what about backyard chicken" type idk bleh boring. also like i get the feeling i should have maybe just been even more surface level bc later she was talking about how she drives electric car and is saving the earth so 🙄

like if i was totally honest id have to get into anarchism and prefiguration and "decolonial tools of animality" and its just thats not what theyre signing up for idk

i had a weird convo with holly yesterday about veganism and idk it was hard bc i didnt know if to just be completely honest and have a ton of explaining to do or just give surface level answers

ive been thinking about the morality of secrets, specifically in close relationships bc of something isaiah brought up yesterday telling a story about finding lewds in someones camera roll and causing a breakup, wanna come back to at some point and flesh things out more

universal legibility and language diversity are really interesting concepts to play with, especially after reading a bit of james c scott. not to even mention to nice quip at the end. and these criticisms apply to any universal language, not just esperanto

i also think the point that the exercise will always be euro-centric and colonialist is absolutely true and its fascinating that i missed that before. really interesting to see how we can reproduce the worst aspects of society while intending good.

googled some stuff about esperanto this morn bc i was interested and then looked on twitter for linguist perspectives and this is a really good critique

found someones cute pfp but it was low qual so i remade :3

Restorative justice, lots of things. And honestly like it’s not a huge interest of mine even tho I acknowledge that current prisons are giga fucked and I’m very sympathetic to a world without them. BUT COME ON DUDE I fucking hate it here

It’s not like that tweet even got ratiod either like I think progressive libs are just co-opting it T-T it became super popular and snappy to say bc BLM and now everything is muddled, rip

BRO ahehbfnfjdjdjbd this is why it’s so hard to find actual resources on this shit. Like personally rn I can’t say confidently I’m a prison abolitionist bc I don’t know what my positive vision would look like, need to explore more critical criminology, transformative justice,

Bro this guy in my class is so conservative and so shit lmfao every time he talks. And it’s annoying bc it’s not like the typical conservative shitter it’s more like William Buckley type and it’s just dressed up more. He speaks up a lot but it’s always in little chunks

So it was hard to tell at first, but there were plenty of really cringe phrases statements words etc. dominates convos but in a weirdly passive way? Idk frustrating to deal with and shuts stuff down imo

trying to argue the same thing. With all this being said, i think there are still strong criticisms you can make about hegemony within a field, even if that hegemony is ostensibly progressive. but i think that criticism has to be very focused and precise, and the examples can't

come from common usage where most people are likely not to have fully understood what is actually being said.

also butler is contrasted with foucault a lot and criticized for basically not doing the same thing? like not exactly but it seems really weird. a geneology of gender would be worthless, everyone knows its culturally and historically contingent, that wouldnt do anything to

dislodge the affinity for essentialism people feel and would not get to the metaphysical nature of things. there needs to be theory done in this way that can't just be handled like punishment for example idk

that being said the article did cite someone i think will be more convincing, or at least seems a lot more promising. Sedgwick, Paranoid Reading and Reparative Reading. weak theory and strong theory, bad surprises. i think i much more partial to these ideas, even if Schep is

... and like... yeah? and thats ok lol. like i know they try to have a sympathetic example in the article of a trans woman but idk seems like cope to me tbh. ofc i have to be careful bc personal agenderish tendencies but like im sorry to say that performativity is

"cultural imperialism" is just fucking hilarious. idk i get big "veganism is anti-indigenous" vibes from this. like there are some important critiques to be made of veganism and or performativity when approaching marginalized groups politically and rhetorically, but that

doesnt mean its just like haha welp throw it all in the trash bc some marginalized people don't like it. like there are absolutely queerphobic trans people and i dont think this is really very useful for doing this shit lol

just read an article critiquing Butler's gender theory by Dennis Schep ("The Limits of Performativity: A Critique of Hegemony in Gender Theory") and idk how to think about it yet but i have some feelings

first of all ill be clear that i dont have enough background understanding in structuralism or psychoanalysis to fully grasp butler, but it doesn't seem required for this article. at the same time tho, i am worried by that bc it might be simplifying.

basically the whole argument is basically just "To say that identity is performative may be liberatory for some, but pose an insurmountable conflict for others, particularly those who perceive their identity to be structured by some form of essentialist determination"

i was correct about my prediction of stress break out. lets goooo i was correct / what the fuck this sucks

especially bc so many of the treaties and shit were coerced and shitty and there was no real self determination allowed by Muscogee, but yknow that doesnt just give them carte blanche to be racist lmao

also its weird? bc a lot of freedmen descendents dont even want citizenship for like resources? everyone ive seen is like pretty well off so thats an interesting dynamnic too fuck man

should be granted citizenship, but idk how i feel about the US federal involvement bc of history and all sorts of other stuff, and like ugh its still annoying bc its still working within in colonially constructed blood quantum shit and gah its very tricky but very interesting