yeowch neck hurty

Good luck bonding over mutual interests with someone whose passions are so transient, whose fixation is so overbearing, whose engagement with community oscillates from exclusively observational to outright rejection with no in between.

No one has better music taste than my past self - who else could have such bangers just waiting to be shuffled through?

Critical support for the C-suite exec posting “This looks good. A lot of great information.” in the chat while the call is reviewing the work I did that he absolutely does not understand lmao

still can’t believe my employer has gotten away with posting orientalism on main for like a decade, like people have to show up to that building every day man

Attempting to explain Halimede to the uninitiated is more difficult than I thought it would be lol

It’s reasonable to have concerns about what they’re called, but I actually think gynephilia and androphilia as concepts are very helpful because they dissociate the user’s gender identity from who they’re sexually attracted to

Introduced the concepts to a few normies and they respond positively, I feel like it’s just kinda less pressure to not have figure it out all at once

Then again this is very analytical philosophy way of approaching one’s sexuality and I’m certain for some it would be appalling to disaggregate - part of their attraction is always already about their identity and the relation with the identity of the desired

And personally, meh idrc, I think the whole idea of formalizing and legibilizing things is a mistake from the get-go, but it might be a helpful stepping stone concept for someone, or might be another metaphor in their repertoire. Mostly it’s just interesting they’re neglected so much despite

the intense focus on categorizing all aspects of identity. It’s just kinda odd that sexuality seems like something tacked on to one’s gender identity, when I know a lot of people can feel fairly confident in their sexuality due to the more observable facts, but gender identity is more elusive.

Ppl will reclaim any slur but cede to Blanchard any term that minimally resembles his work

I also think more widespread use of GP would take a lot of the wind out of AGP’s sails. Once you understand the concepts it’s pretty apparent how thin and pathetic the theory is, and it’s either dead wrong or trivial and nbd, depending on what specific descriptive/causal claims

the expounder is making. Also think the concepts of AGP or AAP could be useful self-reflective grounds, especially for cis people. This is probably an extremely idealistic reading and predictively naive, but I still think it would be good to not throw the concepts out completely.

What makes for bad marketing material is not necessarily useless for existential orientation or imaginative exploration, or even just conceptual tidiness

the early 2010s was such a lovely time for earnestly cringe angsty melodramatic emo music

there was no detectable irony or self-awareness, just a sincere attempt at music for losers

maybe only very early 2010s, mostly mid-late 00s

Ling tosite sigure is fucking incredible. compositionally mind blowing, vocals dripping with emotion, guitars spark with energy; everything is spectacular - but the thing i can't stop thinking about is how they've made me realize how criminally under-utilized and under-appreciated the hi-hat is.

i was never really bothered by it, but it's kinda nice to have an apartment where I don't have to hear my neighbors, traffic, or a frat party down the street lol

I know it shouldn’t be surprising, but it still is a little shocking to see the extent to which “commentary influencers” are just baldly agents of social reproduction

There are pressures in many directions for this to happen of course: status quo affirmation is popular (the goal of ‘commentary’ is not to say something surprising or novel, but rather affirm beliefs the audience already holds), creators are beholden to the interests of capital (ads, sponsors, etc),

and once a creator does begin to get more popular their perspective shifts along with them. One of the most pernicious things is ostensibly progressive commentators really just promoting the same basic paradigm, but this is nothing new. For everything to stay the same, everything must change.

Screenlife weekend is over, here's the result (i was fairly generous with grading)

actually i was finally able to find skydiver and that's a light green too, Eugene Kotlyarenko is super interesting

i also think time is really underutilized - like yeah it can be super cool to have a bunch of shit happen at once and flipping between tabs and woooah action! but also a lot of using computers is p slow and mundane and i think it'd be cool to have those moments included too, if for no other reason

than to create contrast with the busy moments and create suspense. look i'm clearly an idiot and have no idea what i'm talking about when it comes to film but i've seen a few moments and techniques that really excite me and i'd like to see more

lmao how did anyone think Ratter was a good idea. it's boring, says nothing, actually just worthless lol

Host was actually really well done. I mean the jumpscare/loud noises ghosts horror (so the actual plot ig lol) is pretty zzz but like technically what they did with the film is well executed

idek what to say about Spree. it was a maybe a little funny if you squint

just watched Dashcam, unfortunately

Untitled Horror Movie was a chore to get through

Language Lessons was nice (not quite great), i wish there were more multilingual media

the reasons it wasn't great were mostly plot related tho, i liked the cinematography (simple is sometimes better!). and to clarify, it was a largely enjoyable movie, just wasn't saying anything distinctive or significant or resonant

while the things i'm pointing out aren't wrong, i feel like theyre not reflective of the fact that i broadly generally thought it was a charming film

The Collyingwood Story was bad but cool for being early adopter ig

V/H/S 2012 was actually really good - its just found footage horror anthology (defi don't think its quite Screenlife) but i liked it lots. Amateur Night was my favorite by far, followed by 10/31/98.

Safer at Home was just god awful. Am I supposed to be rooting for patriarchy's strongest soldier? and a stupid one at that like wtf is ur plan buddy. also with her not breathing: either 1) the protagonist is REALLY stupid or 2) its plot convenience nonsense. i don't care abt any of the characters

the pandemic screenlife films have been universally bad so far, they're so so so limited and narrow and myopic. also the broader point in SaH abt the pandemic is super unclear. haha Trump bad and also lockdowns are authoritarian and police are corrupt,, ig? if that was the point it was really sloppy

i'm actually unbelievably disappointed. i just finished SiRen 2016 (based off of Amateur Night from V/H/S) and wow what a horrendous let down. Completely betrayed the vision and meaning that could be found in the original, replaced with slop. the fact there was a ringleader alone is egregious

watched Face 2 Face. ehhhhhh offensively bad lmao

i made it through c u soon but idk dawg a lot of the dramatic punch is lost bc im trying to figure out wtf they mean LOL. i think pretty bad and extremely shallow overall, but maybe would have been marginally better if i was more culturally informed on a few things

this is related to (or a symptom of) my lacking ability to properly change the subject. i play within the rules of the game provided and have immense difficulty fluidly transitioning from context to context. I remain trapped with my own lack of imagination and lack of courage

the quote isn't directly relevant, but i just wanted to call out that i'm pretty bad at the type of thing described in Changing the Subject. it's still a little bit out of place because although he does give some more concrete examples, its obviously mostly oriented around philosophical subjects

which i'm bad at too lol, i'm not coming up with novel philosophical questions. but the thing i was describing was pretty narrowly general social skills. i engage too directly with the question and sometimes the answer ought be "that is the wrong question". i usually lack confidence to say that.

Sometimes life is in between keyframes

The crisp night air is so comforting

the screenlife film genre is not ready for tiling window managers

i think i'm kinda lonely but the thought of being around someone rn is repulsive

feel nauseous, i believe this is my body telling me to stop eating the same thing for every meal