it is one of the oddest code switching moments, for me it’s usually the opposite like i Yap Like Guys when i’m stuck with only dudes but when one girls and gays™ show up im like whew i can be normal now
yea this was less of my real opinion (among other reasons, it’s obviously untenable, that’s not how learning works) and more of a self-deprecating description of my revealed behavior
it’s just scary becoming less dumb, and it always feels like i should just be doing my homework and lurking more before bothering others, but it’s not clear when that is supposed to end (hence “[tbd]”)
i sometimes ask qs and every instance is seared into my brain and felt terrible in the moment, but like it was helpful and i would have struggled myself so it’s cool, im still just really averse to it
i like in desperate fear of behaving like this (again)
learning should be a solitary activity until [tbd] to avoid the humiliation of everyone involved
get the total count of all files (subdirs excluded) in a directory. half that count. loop over everything in the directory (incl. subdirs???) and increment i. do shit on the item, but break when i *equals* the half count (if half is not an integer, we never break)