okay this was said in a jokey tone but i wanna rescind the sentiment a bit, i dislike the flattening of political analysis to "interests" to the crowding out of ideational motivations

it's easy to overlook the ugly side of "i am a museum of everything and everyone i have ever loved"

it's one of the few times i can say i've come close to developing a historical sense, interestingly in a time that happens to be concurrent with my own

i really do approach these as consumptive texts, all like the rest

the other thing about the denpa sphere as a distinct subculture is the way themes of otakudom permeate and enhance one another. like you're missing something if listen back to kearesu without also having honda toru tickle you in the back of your mind at least a little bit

hiroki azuma was a more straightforward citation but in a way that is far too straightforward and outdated. he doesn't capture the spirit of otaku in the form of his work and therefore misrepresents them, its not an accident that familiarity does not breed persistent inspiration

see postliterate's piece on why ceika fails nietzsche

i'm frightened to comment on it too much because the form of the expression is integral to its message but i've already extracted it and in some sense it's unavoidable, and lastly it would almost a spit in the face to not comment

but the solemnity and sanctity with which consumption is treated and established throughout his corpus is of course fairly easy to deride and dismiss on a multitude of grounds but not only do i think it is appropriate to treat it as profound, it also can't be mere appeasement or pretend belief

its one of those expressions where you know there is a gap in possible identification and yet the force of its purpose is overwhelming, more than what is seeped in the contemporary metaphors and that which is most salient in his own practical engagement with the world (databases, apis, reads/writes)

there's something so powerful in the delivery of the words "might as well never have consumed the media" and the seriousness and weight with which that predicament is treated, while it's also juxtaposed with "depending on how much you give a shit"

i've been impressed with the krigler anecdotes on "so. THIS is what-i-do-on-a-day-like-this" and the striking description of the creative urge, and kearesu's anecdotes are striking anecdotes on the consumptive urge in a similar way

this is paired with an ethic of responsibility to create, which its converse of the responsibility to consume remains implicit in the brief krigler anecdote but which of course is necessary and emphasized elsewhere

there's so much more to say. the ability to focus on the absolute, the contribution to the whole, the marching of time and your place in it, but i think the other thing i want to call appreciation to (at risk of bringing too much of myself into the text) is the understanding of how that engagement

of reciprocity requires translation, interpretation, selection, and formulation for oneself. the concretization of the consumed into new productions requires an amount of discipline and control and will that would not otherwise be developed

theres a certain pull of what the material demands out of you and it brings with it the rewarding experience of the process of having to actually process the data, to familiarize oneself in a more intimate way, to engage on a more rigorous level. the productive act is a love letter to consumption

and in a stronger sense is the only way to consume properly if you want the most out of it. you're not passively receiving the response allowing it to discard itself, you're holding onto the data and writing it to your own database in preparation for proper internal reads for external writes

and that last part is not lost on me either!! not only is this the only way to properly consume the immediate object of consumption, but it is the only way to enable proper consumption of previous and future consumptions by comparison and aggregation!

i'm just totally living for the openness and brimming potentiality in the ambiguity of "other tables and entries". i used the phrases internal and external in a relative sense before as a fairly irresponsible expositing tool but part of makes his metaphor so compelling is how unstructured they are

the precise spatial location is entirely opaque; the continuity is lacking of where the databases are or who is in possession of what data at which moment, its just this swirling mass of associations that morphs itself as each sentence passes

i'm overwhelmed by the force of "you have to" that recurs. in one instance it is moderated by an "in order to", but it is all the more sturdy for that. the elliptical implications of the former expression are all the more punchy with the contrast of the latter's more full formulation.

the "you" in "you have to" is both personal and impersonal in a double sense. on the one hand it is a general statement applying to all "you"s that have the requisite relevant powers of consumption and production, but it is also a specifically audience-oriented "you" to the people listening.

on the second hand, that very audience is both impersonal and personal, in the sense that he probably does not know the individuals on the other side of the screen, who might be watching this where and when, so it is a general peer. and yet it is ultimately consumed as personal and directed.

i suppose another small wrinkle is that there are specific audience members that he has the foreknowledge will be watching this, so the expression can be seen as a furtherly personal, particularly with dedications. and yet theres still an impersonal character to the delivery in its distribution

its just a really beautiful piece that moved me a lot, i know i meandered a little by the end but it was just such a dense and inspiring way of thinking about the world

i didn't speak too much about how the visual and auditory elements played a role in the message but i'm okay to leave this to the experience itself for now, i'm not equipped for that type of task yet

this is a lie, i don't wish i archived these, i just wish i was able to see them now

(to be read with broader applicability, of course)

if your philosophy of mind paper doesn't cite kill(ss)ing asuka i won't read it

www.youtube.com/@killssingas... www.youtube.com/@fragmentsof...

still kinda wild he killed himself over it

i completely forgot about kearesu until someone posted about them on denpa-chan, they were really fucking cool

anyway thanks unim for these few, unfortunate i didn't back up more myself

don't listen to anything i say until i've read a lot more phenomenology

on a less playful note it really would be good for me to do so (note i didn't say "i'd like to do so"). it's frankly been a weak point of mine and it honestly just hasn't gripped me previously but i think i can set some meager goals for myself this year to give it a better shot.

its hard to dedicate the smaller motivational and intellectual resources i have access to nowadays to something of more historical than passionate merit but i might surprise myself, who knows

the straightforward nominalism of weber and wittgenstein is refreshing relative to the theoretical confusion of analytics but its horribly thin

i really do think there is more space for an enlightened pragmatism to do more, but it would look very strange to pragmatism's typical adherents

i think rorty's strange pragmatism gets us to a more exciting configuration but by basically going in the opposite direction (or maybe inventing a new dimension?) of what i mean in root

still it is shocking how many people feel an affinity between empiricist and pragmatist influences, which obviously can be largely credited to dewey (despite his protests)

chat do i fork over the 40 dollars and hope calibre de-drm still has the sauce

when the spirit of an age has grown old, all philosophy can do is paint the gray of the world in gray. consciousness could not despair at all over what is gray if it did not harbor the concept of a different color whose trace is not absent from the negative whole.

one of the most painful challenges is to learn to think contingent and transient essentientialities, essences produced through their moments

you misunderstand being when you transfigure it into pure becoming

like i'm completely on board with proceeding negatively and carving conceptual space by negation but there comes a point when its so devoid of determination that it implies laziness and ignorance on the part of the writer

the most offensive thing is when the content isn't allowed to determine its own investigation and instead is treated with a misshapen imposition. my expectation for the author is to be as rigorous as the concept demands in the way the concept demands

in a more sympathetic tone, i understand feeling disoriented after realizing the failures of definitions and necessary and sufficient conditions, but still it doesn't let you off the hook for doing the hard work

ok rawls