the constant handwringing of “well under capitalism…” as if that exonerates the proles from playing their part in its perpetuation

on the lowkes i pirate then add the game to steam and run w proton anyway

hot girl aura loss when she thought deleuze was a part of the frankfurt school and that adorno was a postmodernist

its easy to make piano arrangements too staccato

its up to the player to make it flow

rests are powerful, their inadvertent use can be unfortunate

sometimes im too clever for my own good and it’s awkward 😭

“do u sing?” “i scream! and i like your cat aesthetic” *says something autistic about kittencore and she doesn’t know what it is* fml

re:

kasey does functional attraction and i do object oriented attraction

(we are both narcissists)

wait this is actually super comforting

i like when my hair goes in my face

i'm lonely and i don't want anyone to know it

my sex is bouba

boys' love

i have complicated feelings about annie-style (the other one) micrological joys and i’d like to flesh them out when i’m in a better headspace

i’ve been crying a lot

you’re sweet for taking care of me

i’m unwilling to take a position on whether we thrive in silence but i am willing to say that i wouldn’t be pleasant right now

skipping my meeting and going on a walk, fuck you all

now is the time i’d record something for juliet if i wasn’t so tired of my voice and the venom on my lips

so instead it’s time to listen to shitty angry music

outsourcing the emotions i can’t bring myself to feel

where is this poor girls advisor

i think i’m gonna be sensitive and bitter until end of year

instead of feature adoption 5 year plan we should have a performance 5 year plan, this is fucking unacceptable

sorry i’m sensitive and bitter today

some days catching on e.h. does not spark joy

everyone ignores em when she says shit like this because if they didn’t the conversation would be over

bring back the phrase “running dogs of imperialism”

i’ve made my own position abundantly clear

i’m a pissy whiny irritable baby

i’m peeved

yesterday i was thinking that it was kinda curious that he discussed consequentialist modes (hedonism, utilitarianism) and didn’t have separate categorizations revolving around duty, but then i realized it might be odd to speak of the primacy of obligation in presumably voluntary friendship

which is not to say he neglects it by any means, it features prominently and often all over the place, but typically role-based relationships (parental/familial, economic) and in discussions or virtues and their lack

i feel like it’s anthropological significant and revealing more than anything

in the same way i have poor ego boundaries, the boundaries of the object of my emotional evaluations is very loose

i other words it’s hard for me to tell whom is the target of positive affect, there is simply positive affect. often i end up crystallizing focus into several discrete individuals tailored to their own particularities, but the impetus is rather undifferentiated

not to say that the causal chain can’t prominently feature a person that also receives the affection back in turn (in addition to other inspired recipients), that paired with compersion are of course the two classic illustrations of the falsity of love scarcity

just that that case is one among many circumstances that can give rise to fondness of heart, and that the reciprocity may be more due to pragmatic proximity than meets the eye

i like u

she’s mad i said i wouldn’t rape her

whatever virtues there are in mythical unreflective homeric life, that doesn’t mean they’d make for very pleasant company; this is analogous to the modern software developer

unironically i think geuss says this somewhere lol

i think more than anything i just want to make it clear to myself that my rejection is not of the form "i think the state is good now actually" lol

it’s worth saying though because it demonstrates why i can feel alienated from anarchism and still be staunchly ardent on evaluations like this one