when i get home i can show you what i do, basically there’s a command that make it spin down at start up but it’s still available in the case you want to mount and spin back up
yes, but you should know i am extremely sensitive about this and have very deep convictions
to answer other reply q:
i need money to buy things to live and in order to reach that end i need to perform activities that yield money. this is a material limitation on the activities i can and can’t do.
but if i find the entire realm of sharp instrumental reason entirely repulsive and abhorrent, i do not see how any means of money attainment could not be profoundly terrible (and that’s without mentioning the specific offensiveness of each instrumental good in that chain on its own terms)
yea i was only a few months into work (at my first job out of college) at that point, and a lot of that was an extended training period. so although it was unpleasant, it was also still novel enough that i hadn’t completely settled into the life pattern yet.
i legitimately cannot imagine a set of circumstances that would cause me to emote in this way any more. occasionally a smile breaches my lips; but happiness no longer. i mean it when i say she was murdered.
in case you’re wondering why i can appear so hard-line when talking about the corrosive affects of labor, this is why. it is not an exaggeration at all to say that this version of myself has died - rather, was murdered. i am now incapable of joy.
“One last fundamental difference: the longing for freedom, the instinct for happiness and the subtleties of feeling for freedom belong just as necessarily to slave-morality as the art and fanaticism of reverence and devotion are regular symptoms of an aristocratic way of thinking and valuing.” N,JGB
even just a few months ago, i had the enviable position of being frustrated with my predicament. my body has gone stiff after thrashing about in agony; i’m unable to even muster a pitiful twitch. my eyes have dulled; adorno’s nightmare has been realized in my silent crawl onward.
republicans are always “groomer this, groomer that” when it comes to children, but no one looks out for the poor chaser bfs that get pressured into transitioning 😔
fun facts with willow: did you know that clothing is the only object in the world that has a teleology? and that’s to be cozy and feel nice without regard to appearance or social acceptability and also to offer as few functional impediments as possible. the more you know! ^_^