one of my most stubborn bsky opinions is that i must remain comfortable posting on main. i waver sometimes but i want to be as vulnerable and open as i can be, for anyone interested enough to care.

as i’ve accumulated more relationships, i’ve had to become more mindful of what i share. i’ve had to find ways of being transparent while respecting their desires for privacy. i’ve enjoyed developing this new type of discretionary judgement, although i don’t always get it right.

the bluntness of old diary-posting probably isn’t really possible any longer; proper nouns are replaced with pronouns, untagged self-harm pics are replaced with implication, verbose contextualization is replaced with reliance on pre-existing familiarization that fits within 3-skeet threads.

that’s not all bad, it’s fun in lots of ways to get accustomed to a new mode of communication and to explore its bounds. constraints are interesting. i think it’d be fun to go back to the old style for a week, though it’s unclear if i’m capable given the kind of values and habits i’ve internalized.

it’s also unclear if it’s something i need any longer. the function bsky posting has served in my life has fluctuated a lot since i first joined, and to some extent the current state of things is the appropriate adaption to my circumstances. no matter what, i don’t want to allow myself to hide tho.

how does it feel to be so deliberate and intentional, only to be met with clumsy thoughtlessness?

former 🙋‍♀️

it’s always 2 dumb bitches telling each other 🙂‍↔️

(this one *is* a subskeet 🤍)

bless me father, for i am about to store stringified json

surely it's allowed to input-buffer ask for forgiveness

related deep philosophical quandary: "does it make you gay if you do a gay thing intentionally knowing you're doing a gay thing, but you're just doing it to be funny?.... like what if you literally let yourself get blown by a dude"

i have every expectation that many of you will, it's mostly a matter of exposure

new(est) willow is hella playpilled but rn im just irked that you're the only one who can watch me dance between contexts without getting disoriented

alternative metaphor: only one who can watch me crash my bike into a tree unflinchingly

its nice being inconsistent, i just wish more of you could consistently follow along

i know! it was good! i do genuinely mean that i already believed this, just that with my current social circle it doesnt make sense to speak aloud. ur basically the only person i could trust to get it lol

i knowwww and thats why i love him, just like to 99% of people i'd cringe and die if they said as much

unironically, tho it sounds memey/cope

never underestimate my ability to earnestly proclaim contradictory propositions in rapid succession

i might not be a doll but i sure am frail

smiling through gritted teeth until i blow my head off

🙃

you know it bestie

please do this

babe stop sucking up to babe

i need to implement a more effective union busting policy

🤦‍♀️ i was quoting babe babe

babe will you repost my art so i can be an awful little clout demon

this fits you better anyway

it’s so funny that i always say shit like this after laying out something that i retrospectively interpret as extremely profound

me to @kasey.cafe

(i’ve really come around actually, they’re based as fuck)

i bite my tongue, it’s a bad habit

i wish i knew you wanted me

(TDKg2uB0jMo)

sorry buddy get back here

one of the primary functions my quote posting serves is author-affirmation through pedigree

“author” is intentionally ambiguous here between quotee and quoter (because it’s both). in the case of self-quoting, it is doubly self-affirmative

lastly, note the modification to value-preservation

i’m looking forward to my drive tmrw

things i would no longer say: Why The Hell Is The Southern Tier North Of The Northern Tier

everyday feels the same yesterday was this past month but this past month was today i dont get it, i never really did time never felt real; nothing feels like anything i thought it would be over soon but ive always just been waiting

unedifying obscurity bsky.app/profile/did:...

silly hypothetical inspired by discussion in this thread: platform that runs their own pds and creates new accounts for each user (rather than using existing accounts). removes the broader social identity component and therefore makes the "why" even more unclear, but that's the point :)

kaseycoded convoluted metadata storage

there’s a lot to love here. the state of nature story with me as protagonist, the personification of abstractions, the dramatic flourishes, the casual oscillations of style, the walkthrough wrapping it all together. playful yet methodical, it was a pleasure to read. sincerely, The Reader :)

can you just get new ones?