main_tabel

i've been overinvested in social and underinvested in being an interesting person

okay i'm kind of sick of my shit

sorry kasey

it's pretty embarrassing

any evaluations or opinions or feelings or whatever of mine are just so cheap and worthless

meh barrow is boring

oh my god free me i'm so bored

how am i supposed to get enough sleep when i wake up at 1:30am with excitement and joy in my heart

for historical purposes this was prior to talking to anyone

i hope i didn't tucker myself out too much by talking all night but it was comfy

okay i know this wouldnt make a ton of sense, but i can't help but think about how the new denpa-chan coulda been improved with some atproto, and would actually have some pretty interesting app features

basically, invite-only forum app that most ppl would primarily interact with through one client, with interest of loosely "private" threads, and some moderation qol things. github.com/cblgh/cerca

i think the interesting parts for me are being an allowlist appview, like you could ignore posts unless they were from an approved did, or posts from an approved did prior to them being approved. "banning" a user just looks like dropping all their posts

yea, you can have an app pds and use invites there but you can also have a separate invite thing from patreon or whatever and people on indie pds can apply. anyone can make a thread and your replies are to them, standard stuff.

if you make a "private" thread its already only private to logged in users, so that's basically the same as no-authenticated. committee moderation tools could be varying levels of on and off protocol, but i think it'd be interesting if they were attempted on-protocol, since they're kinda social too.

and yknow, theres not a huuuge upside to using atp here, besides the basics of distinct identity and credible exit things. no sync. you could make splinter apps/clients pretty easily tho, with different or no allowlists. but yea it'd be unfamiliar tech so not realistic, just fun and more compelling

its really the more blurry boundaries between user and moderator that are interesting, plus the limitation of history being a feature with a different invite structure

does anyone want an invite to denpa-chan

reply to this post for an invite*!

*only posts viewable on the bluesky appview are eligible

i just realized that what i had been calling "sentimental" would more accurately be described as "romanticized avoidance"

there are retrospective and contemporary variants, but they are equivalent in terms of this aspect, which is precisely the aspect i now find most disdainful

dude i love being a boy

lol

idk how i oscillate so sharply between prideful and dismissive / frail and emotional without feeling much dissonance at all

maybe the acknowledgement of lacking dissonance is a recognition of dissonance, or at least a recognition that dissonance would be appropriate or expected. really it's just surprising to go from crying in my office to speaking in a disinterested and disdainful tone

i think that kinda fits though, i feel like the former brought into focus what really matters, and being forced to trudge through irritating worthlessness prior and after were made all the more unimpressive

there's been so much waffling about today lol

call me a positivist or techbro but im pretty tired of people just saying a bunch of words with no meaning and no yapping just to yap

im glad i didn't prep for that call, i know way more than i let on

i don't know much but i know plenty more than you

idk i think i screwed up with kasey rn, were so light on interaction

im not too pleased with the energy ive been exuding this week, hoping that connecting with people will make me feel less aimless and ungrounded

okay this is a lie these are pretty bad, but better than what the overview would suggest

it is cute that cinny quickscope made the cut

post-abandonment recap is mega cursed

tracklist actually isn't horrible somehow but the summaries were putiful

doja cat is because hinge girl (who otherwise actually had cool taste!) told me to listen to her new album and i listened one time through

kick drums are boring but important is my take but i also don't do fancy listening things or production so who knows

it just goes thump but it's not meant to be flashy

also like idk if you ever play a kit it's just pretty solid for the flow of everything

sex repulsed but only when others express their sexuality and only because it makes me think less of them intellectually

wouldn't give up being a boy for anything

wtf is happening on youtube, what do u mean "fifth wave / midwest emo" those are totally different!

im just an ineloquent little fella

not so negative !

i can't believe time just keeps passing, it's a little horrifying