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https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/17508487.2016.1154583 some things i find really interesting, a few points where its like yikes idk (caring teachers, little bit of ageist assumptions, discipline etc)

really good article: Teachers as mothers in the elementary classroom: negotiating the needs of self and other James, Jennifer Hauver https://booksc.org/book/30306765/264409

good followup piece: “The Discipline Stop”: Black Male Teachers and the Politics of Urban School Discipline Ed Brockenbrough https://booksc.org/book/43086114/b34252

oh my god how i have not heard of this actor before hes so hot lmao (Timothée Chalamet for future research) also yeah im aware i might be a sexual narcissist so what

.Sep 24, 2021

My prof keeps saying “He she or they” when referring to a nonspecific individual, just say they

.Sep 23, 2021

Assignment in class to propose an ed policy: someone says “increase autonomy… of teachers grading students” lmfao incredible

.Sep 23, 2021

They meant like less federal/state standardized tests which I mean, good I guess, but lol it’s so funny to hear someone use autonomy as a way to exercise power over others abuser logic

also interesting how socdems and other progressive ppl are so against school abolition, while that and RA was the things that got me much more into anarchism, makes sense tho they struggle for better access for disadvantaged ppl

ive thought about that a lot too, but if the thing marginalized ppl are excluded from is fundamentally unjust, their historical exclusion isn't an argument to keep it around. like women were excluded from being king, but that doesn't mean we should keep around monarchy

its just a wholly unnecessary aspect too - theres no need to justify your answer in front of a class to understand the material, and i imagine it makes it much much worse. things dont get dwelled on if the answers are correct, but if wrong its like "a chance for learning"

which like yeah i guess but out of trying to be respectful to the student who got something wrong you make the ordeal last so much longer its humiliating

i keep doing that dwelling stress out thing about my experience yesterday in class and fuck fuck fuck its so awful i want to shrink and die and never be seen again i hate school i hate school how disgusting and embarrassing

i love learning but i hate school - reading this book for class describing a classroom experience and holy fuck the secondhand embarrassment and anxiety ive had to stop 3 times now what a horrendous environment

just so tired :( this sucks

I’m not meaning to blame my anxiety or whatever, I also just genuinely suck at talking. But then I also get in these loops where it’s like “fuck anxiety, just say your shit” and then it’s dumb or awkward or I put myself on a path I can’t follow through on

And obv that just makes future anxiety worse

Lmfao it sucks so fucking much being afraid to speak, finally doing it, then having a horrendous experience. I can feel my harmful psychological dispositions being reinforced and i hate it.

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/243462322_Intersectionality_and_dissensus_A_negotiation_of_the_feminist_classroom

https://digitalcommons.uri.edu/jfs/vol7/iss7/8/

digitalcommons.uri.edu

Teaching against Hierarchies: An Anarchist Approach

The state of California spends more on prisons than on colleges and universities, and the fact that these two budgetary figures are often compared shows the relationship between the two state institutions. Our classrooms, starting from a very early stage, not only prepare children to be productive members of the consumer economy but educate them for complacency in the face of state violence and mass incarceration. In attempting to move away from hierarchical models of education, this article looks at the feminist pedagogical theory of bell hooks and antiauthoritarian and anarchist theorists such as Jacques Rancière and Derrick Jensen in order to begin investigating alternatives to current education systems. It also identifies major problems in attempting to construct antihierarchical classrooms within a larger society that is still suffering from oppression and structural inequality, and claims that, if not paired with direct action, any attempt for revolutionizing education will meet up against repressive state institutions.

https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/ziq-anarchy-vs-archy-no-justified-authority

theanarchistlibrary.org

Anarchy Vs. Archy: No Justified Authority

ziq Anarchy Vs. Archy: No Justified Authority Or Why Chomsky Is Wrong 2018-08-08

https://www.anarchistfederation.net/brian-oliver-sheppard-anarchism-vs-right-wing-anti-statism/

Basically what I expected out of YDSA meeting. They don’t meet too often so I think I’ll keep going. I’ll def follow along with reading group (someone likes Bookchin so copium maybe some libertarian socialists) and maybe will do some irl shit too if something seems interesting

Mostly progressive Democrat freshmen but plenty of ppl had done irl shit so idk, interest

I was super awk at end tho I just like listening to ppl so I just sorta sat there while ppl chatted. I wanted to talk to Bookchin person but they were busy w other ppl

based i should look up (also luxemburg too)

lol sure man

lawl dude its not authoritarian if they don't intend it to be, teachers are only trying to get them to focus!!!! i hate how the language is so hidden like "emotional and social tranquility" bruh youre just saying they shut up and listened bc you coerced them to

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.Sep 19, 2021

also holy shit tyranny of the clock is like so so so real in school holy fuck

enjoying the 20 minutes of soft legs before my body starts doing this again

Have an important recognition of the evolution on my perspective on the contents of my will (when I die document thing yk) and gail that I wanna think through after class

"this is just as dictatorial as someone defecting" "authoritarian" guy is throwing a fit lmao like holy shit neoclassical econ brain got to him actual white guy sovereign citizen right wing libertarian arc, incredibly embarrassing

to be fair tho holy shit the appeals ppl made were so bad omg i cant imagine trying to TA for this class, ppl keep giving random answers to very clear questions but yeah idk yikes, i know intro class on something i have good deal of knowledge about but still has to be frustrating

this guy got so mad today in class - collective action problem example +.5 grade pts if all cooperate, 2.5 if 1 defect, 0 if 2+ defect. 1st round 4 defect, 2nd round we get chance to talk, conclude we do public ballot rather than private, this guy gets so pissy lmao

kill the middle class professional inside your head etc :P

Social Class and Social Action: The Middle-Class Bias of Democratic Theory in Education really thought provoking and interesting article

Don’t think I mentioned this before but there are these 2 girls that are friends in my Ed Pol class that are super upbeat and kind and they paired with me before, very cool and understanding people. Felt very comfy with them during mock interview activity and was a little too

Honest (any/all pronouns, no friends or activities, just really venerable info I don’t usually share) anyway girl named Emma has super cute hair and chill fashion style and I was gender envy (TikTok moment cringe). I would like to dress more fem/queer but I’m a lil nerv and ofc

Still weird about buying commodities and also worried about comfort/effort involved. Still would be nice to see myself like that. I should give makeup another shot, even if uncomfy and a hassle

Mood flux like wild today :( really exhausting to go between so much - depressed numb content anxious lethargic disgusted pathetic sad functional excited frustrated rushed just back to back it’s a lot

lmao im so depressed :(

im sure school has nothing to do with it :)

Don’t think I’ve ever told anyone this but I’ve had fantasies for a long time of cutting the fat parts off of myself and they’re back rn. Ofc would never do it (doesn’t make practical sense, wouldn’t be effective, would be horrendously ugly even if it wasn’t bad for the obv)

It just sucks. I hurt and I’m tired and I feel awful

i know these ppl have very bad reactionary social positions but still it hurts, seriously this thing is really hard to let go of. i relapse all the fucking time its so annoying but looking like this is so much worse

i feel so fucking gross and the constant fluxuation is awful for my body i know and will also make it much harder to look the way i want to. its just so hard. im really stuck. i wish my body didn't have to correlate to healthy eating, and that lack of healthy eating didnt fuck